A letter from Oct 2nd, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I am so proud of you at how far you have come in the last 10 years. From where you were at the age of 20. Having a baby, in an unhealthy relationship that was abusive, to unable to finish school because your priorities weren’t straight like you thought. To a lot of partying and living. You made a lot of great memories but hid a lot of pain. Right before turning 30 you wanted a healthier version of you. You took your mental health serious and put in work for yourself. Continuous therapy, dealing with your depression/anxiety, letting go of friendships & relationships that are not serving you. Creating an atmosphere that is healthy for you and your babies. Being more present for your babies. For your 30’s you have set the Intentions of peace, love, and happiness. To be a better version of yourself. You have left a relationship, which has been painful, but to make the Intensions you set for yourself to be true. You have realized life is too short to be Unhappy. & all through your 20’s you were Unhappy. The best version and happiest version of yourself will reflect in your boys. They too will be the best versions of themselves. I hope you have kept your goals in vision and keep knocking each one off of your list. Because you are capable of anything you set your mind too. You are strong, resilient, admirable, a leader, a loving mother, and a wonderful friend. Hold on to the people who fill up your cup when needed and don’t forget to keep filling theirs up as well. 💜 Love always, Me. You have grown so much from 20 until 30. Keep growing & glowing!

Epilogue

over 3 years later

Dear Me,

I need you to pause for a moment and really take in how far you’ve come because I know you don’t give yourself enough credit.

Life didn’t get...

Cneo mlaciylag leik you it raeeis owlud dhoep. Hvireae ct,af ywas, it in got in aynm. Rrb,heetaka whgtei ndik yuo’ev atkl oneomital iecdrar the d’nto n,snfiucoo somt fo out acebstsk, htat lduo oatub eeplop dan. Yuo dan erhe are llsti eyt. Inrgty llsti. Tllis thrsu it enwh onohsigc tbtere, eevn.
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Satp uyo ni hbgruot teh efli e,yras iotn uuieltabf fvei odrlw ihst therona. Mhoret a treeh you fo own ear. Orf cnadguie ether ,ystafe ohw to ielltt msnauh l,ove dna olko oyu. Are oyu ys,ad woh msoe ouy iignvg eetpsid oyu meht earlzie elef mreo ntah.
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Uoy - ugadteadr ddi mhisegotn idnbielcre oyu. Eocn 02,52 tlfe twah you ni sinhedif emlspibsio. Nrgvetiehy wea htta be who you of you ptos lduow reasy to in ahd osrinve ?goa of hse own.
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Bkca ot edam ahs ohtuhg yoru ipreliohnsat orfht a eevn eeval iagan ahs dpyle,e eebn uoy detset pledul ahter htat eth and dna checoi ni ouy. Htat snweasek nst’aw a. Ahtt a nhgtsrte was. Grhwot ttah swa. Flte you orefl,uys hatt dna even ogihonsc naruienct it when ifnrierygt saw.
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Trhig ownk lfee tosl i own ouy.
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Nad pu havey, yuo hsonigw norisve otn ryuo i estb rfo re’oyu as fo dletsioa, olfuesry het owkn efle elik sikd. Hwis okwn uoy nad akwe ,lwoeh oldcu lihgena irg-tvneoh dan eahpnp ap,hyp atth uyo lefe pu eref uoldc i stju.
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Tub htsi owh not srwok atsth’. Teodn’s adn hatt youer’ amne nlfiagi.
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Oyu qrusea ta ont noe cbka are.
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Now are sah omeonse ouy hwo tloso. Narewaess. Irexceepne. Rndiabueso. Uyo dyu—tpso tehm rtnlloceod iaang udlo lbinyld nto yb ear ouyr leef ynix,aet reyo,mna ryuo if won ruyo yhte eczoinegr evne thrgi cd,o gebin yrou oip,erdesns.
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A nto hialneg hgtriats is niel. Is’t msyse. It psool. Ti peuass. Tersarts it. Mteoeimss ti hge,vnryeti uonend h’envat ouy vyoeu’ adn leefs ekli tbu.
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Isltl rea oyu hatt enoc ineerlsti orewt awmno aubot ouy s,tnogr.
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Tcaylul,a meor ntah oey’ur ahtt won.
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Tarap and ot lalf yuo keil igogn eslef lislt pkee own awth ti busacee knwo.
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Rlgduibine a not uyo of your ifle ear ht,rtu aelcp vaiusvrl omfr.
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Leowdla ot kaet imet ear oryu oyu.
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Oyu adn wdoeall to luefhop ta eht sda asem rae temi eefl.
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Ldloawe ufrigde tou rea ti tno haev lla yet to oyu.
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I:sht wtha tastrme si.
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Gtyinr yuo rae.
Trbtee era goosnich yuo.
Erhe litsl uyo are.
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Htat fo dna si to dourp thimngoes eb.
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Ruoy a ndee sidk don’t you fprceet ovsreni fo.
Arle eend a etyh eno.
A ilehagn oen.
Rogignw a oen.
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Aer nad tycalex you ttha si owh.
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Kepe oiggn.
Veen teh dasy qiute no.
On yaveh even yasd hte.
Feel oyu ehnw mngiak ikle ’youer vene gorpsesr tno.
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Eeusacb oyu aer.
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Nda os eelf rigatsnt kbca mhuc uyo uorlysfe ,unnnkwo y,da -eht siht iovensr ierpd eth eon inttsgi —revodna at lwli eno kolo yuo of in iwll nmsoapisoc.
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Uyo tlso not rea.
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Hte aer nebimgco yuo ni fo ldmied.
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E,ovl htiw.
Em 💜.

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