A letter from Oct 2nd, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I am so proud of you at how far you have come in the last 10 years. From where you were at the age of 20. Having a baby, in an unhealthy relationship that was abusive, to unable to finish school because your priorities weren’t straight like you thought. To a lot of partying and living. You made a lot of great memories but hid a lot of pain. Right before turning 30 you wanted a healthier version of you. You took your mental health serious and put in work for yourself. Continuous therapy, dealing with your depression/anxiety, letting go of friendships & relationships that are not serving you. Creating an atmosphere that is healthy for you and your babies. Being more present for your babies. For your 30’s you have set the Intentions of peace, love, and happiness. To be a better version of yourself. You have left a relationship, which has been painful, but to make the Intensions you set for yourself to be true. You have realized life is too short to be Unhappy. & all through your 20’s you were Unhappy. The best version and happiest version of yourself will reflect in your boys. They too will be the best versions of themselves. I hope you have kept your goals in vision and keep knocking each one off of your list. Because you are capable of anything you set your mind too. You are strong, resilient, admirable, a leader, a loving mother, and a wonderful friend. Hold on to the people who fill up your cup when needed and don’t forget to keep filling theirs up as well. 💜 Love always, Me. You have grown so much from 20 until 30. Keep growing & glowing!

Epilogue

over 3 years later

Dear Me,

I need you to pause for a moment and really take in how far you’ve come because I know you don’t give yourself enough credit.

Life didn’t get...

Heodp it uoldw coen elik eiesar ouy ilmagalyc. Ni in tgo ievhear anym ta,fc ti awys,. Cairred teh sscakb,et fo otu nkdi vuyoe’ inatmlooe uaotb dan eeppol iwhteg oincosnuf, taht rthkaea,ebr dno’t msot altk ldou. Era uoy yte tslil nad rehe. Ygintr tsill. Even beet,rt nhew ti osnhogic itsll rhtsu.
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Nhroate the grbohut tish vief rowld ayrse, elfi tion tpas iulaftebu yuo in. Thmoer you a eerht fo own era. Hmnasu aucnigde kolo fro loev, and teher to ettill uyo ,fesayt how. Orme ggniiv yads, flee ear esmo etepdsi aleirze you uyo woh ahtn you etmh.
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Irldceenib edagtdaru - oyu did ouy ihgnsmeot. In 5202, oecn yuo ipiseolsbm etfl nidsihfe htwa. Ahd be esh uyo of hwo nwo reasy wae uwdlo ni nivsreo ?goa atth post tghnyveeri of oyu ot.
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Eavel to nagai eebn eevn rfhot yld,epe bakc nad rathe yrou ccohei a lepudl uoy nda ash thuhog neiripsalhot uoy sdtete in hte sha ttha made. Ttah a aesewksn tswan’. Swa thta a rghsettn. Taht saw hwgtro. Ouy tefl rs,yfelou nweh neve and saw htat ciueartnn it hogcsion tiryrginfe.
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I wkno rigth leef yuo wno stol.
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Fo hnigsow your nisorve ebst you elef i elik ton rof up osueyfrl dksi nowk avyhe, dan sa ,leitadso eht oy’eur. Vghonei-rt up i hanpep uoy jtus luocd hanegil eefr htta nkwo iwsh ewl,ho keaw dna ocdlu oyu ph,apy eefl nda.
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Hsit rwosk otn ’tthsa owh but. Mane dsto’ne ttha ilgfnai dna uye’or.
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Ta aer ckba yuo searqu ton eon.
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Won oesnoem has are ltoos owh yuo. Aasnweesr. Xepeneceri. Drenubaiso. Aanig spoyu—dt by ocd, ginbe if lydnlib yrou hety ryuo uyor rllntoodec are n,oeramy you yrou won ihtgr rioczeeng hemt vene tno feel udlo yxniea,t spsnrieeo,d.
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A nilgahe aisthtgr neil nto is. Its’ ymsse. Ti psolo. Ti uessap. Ti aressrtt. Leesf dan hre,eytnvgi ti imsemoets enonud t’heanv btu eu’oyv ilek uoy.
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Coen t,rogsn trwoe ilstl rae ubtao uoy owanm lenteiirs ttah you.
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,acluytla tahn more ’uoeyr nwo atht.
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Dna own itlsl suceabe tawh knwo artpa giong fsele ti liek ot epke lfla yuo.
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Flie ton acelp arlivvus ear a orfm rhu,tt fo uroy elbidigrnu uoy.
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Aer you ouyr to dloaewl teak itme.
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Fheulop tiem sad are alowled eelf esam ta het to dna oyu.
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Oyu tou to nto tye aloedwl it haev rea all igrudfe.
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Is hwat si:ht tretasm.
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Era uoy gtinyr.
Oingscoh era tbeert ouy.
Ear isltl yuo ehre.
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Otsemnihg of to orpud eb dna si thta.
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Uroy of riovsen cetfpre ouy a dno’t isdk nede.
Dene ehty elra one a.
Oen a ilneahg.
A norigwg noe.
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Laecytx woh dan uoy is rae thta.
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Iggon ekep.
Ysda veen the no tqeiu.
Eth heayv dsya enev on.
Ianmgk oyu efle prresgos eevn leik u’orey wneh not.
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Ear yuo eauscbe.
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Eon iths kwnu,nno uoy e-ht liwl ta kool lwli pscmosoain uyo tagrstin ingitts oen chum o—vnaerd rfeusyol kacb so ronives edipr fele eth fo dna in yad,.
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You tols rea ont.
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Eincogmb of ear hte ni oyu dleimd.
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Iwht ,levo.
Em 💜.

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