A letter from Sep 24th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, At 21 I still feel so lost, even though I'm already in 4th year college. Maybe it's the pandemic? Maybe not. I don't know, maybe I'm just scared to be on my own after spending my whole life as the family's youngest daughter surrounded by everyone. I became too dependent. I hate it, I really do. In 3 days, its mother's birthday which is unfortunately her death day too. I miss her a lot. I keep thinking that my life must be really different if she's still here. Anyway I am just trying this out. I already wrote a separate letter for my 26 year old self.