A letter from Sep 23rd, 2021

Hey CJS. Happy birthday again. I only just opened that last email from us, y'know, from like our 13th? Sorry for not opening it sooner, y'know. So uhhh. I don't know what to put here. I mean, we got into therapy, had another suicide attempt, and also starting cutting again. We're really not doing ok right now. We're actually crying while writing this. I'm so sorry for what I put us through. but enough about us now, we legit both lived through that. I don't really know what to ask. I mean, how was freshman year of high school? New friends I hope, more than the ones we have already. We fucked up bad, pushing everyone away like that. I hope that hasn't happened again. Do you have a bf or gf yet? That would be so cool! Uhm, If we've turned to substances, I'm sorry for letting you down. We both know addiction runs in both sides of the family, so I'm sorry if I did that to you. I don't know what else to write. Anyways, happy 15th! Assuming we haven't committed suicide yet. I love you, CJS from September 23rd, 2021