A letter from Sep 14th, 2021

Peaceful right?

hello im writing this instead of my school work hey mazo, this is rlly embarrasing but hey, its mazo, yk, you. i wonder if you still like the name mazo? your attempt failed, obviously, how would i be writing this? but uh you know, u ghosted everyone from tarlac and wanted to start a new life, but that kinda failed. are you still into chels? have you found someone else? maybe, someone that actually likes you? youre an idiot, you know, clinging onto someone even tho it hurts u a shit ton, but thats how u are, u like to harm urself. tbh i think i already sent a letter like months ago but so much shit has happened then so here we are. god, i dont know what to say? are you still in pampanga? dont tell me you went back to tarlac did you ever get diagnosed? if yes, wtf is wrong with you? if ill be honest, i feel as though u have like adhd or something, ur obviously depressed and u obviously have alotta anxiety going on. are you in therapy? you stopped recently cuz u weren't ready, are you ready now? hows kuya? mommy? have you stopped calling mommy mommy? its weird how whenever i send a message to future me i always mention kuya, when he probably doesnt give a living shit about me did your phone break? i hope not, its a good phone did you ever get a good pc? did you ever get the courage to ask for one? do you think you deserve it? i really want one rn but i gotta like pump up my grades first before asking for stuff, cuz, you know, thats just how your brain thinks have you edited any of the vids youve filmed? was it hard? are you proud? what are your interests? rn your trying to do art but got huge art block cuz u forced urself to do art for art club audition, its on friday, did u ever actuaally audition? or get in the club? youre also into mcyt, i wonder if you still are, and i wonder if your embarrased that you did. im into anime i guess? i watch it and enjoy it but not like, a fan that looks for art everyday or some shit. i wanna make music tbh, u wanna do alotta things, but u cant. this is gonna be a real annoying question cuz i know u hate this but grades? how much did you try? and how much did you cry? lol prolly alot how about ur current friends? rn its poi, chels, and akum, suprisingly. i dont really want friends but im forced to. did you get attached to your maths teacher? right now you really does not want a father figure rn ive been avoiding it with all my might. talking about father figure, how are the male figures in ur life? again, u rn doesnt want them, mostly just cuz you dont want to get attached TALKING ABOUT ATTACHED, how r ur attachment issues lol, rn ur "training" ur attachment issues, like, wtf does that mean (idk either) i wanna be optimistic and ask you how far you've gone but, i honestly think you havent budged at all, look at you, your procrastinating by sending future you a letter because what? the computer assignment is hard? wtf happened to gifted you mazo? sorry for the rant there favorite artists and song? rn u listen to cavetown, mitski, wilbur, glass animals, bo burnham, rex orange county, lovejoy, lemon demon, and artic monkeys. fav song is uhhhhhhhhhh i cant pick so most played song is probably heat waves lol. ( funny how you played heatwaves on loop 60 times a day as a joke months ago but now associate urself w the song ) how many songs has lovejoy released? any collabs? rn they have sex sells, cause for concern, taunt, and one day. ur fav is prolly one day out of the 4 cuz u memorized it already before it came out. play any instruments? i assume no, you wanna make songs but suck at instruments, why cant you get urself into it? idk either. pls dont tell me u made friends from school, this one girl is messaging you, prolly wants to be ur friend, ur better than this cmon any school clubs? i think im just gonna send shitty art to my art club audition cuz, what will mom do abt it when i get rejected? nothing. how rich are you? do u have a job or something? rn you only have money from allowance, did that even ever continue? do you got good clothes now? rn just a bit, not enough for 3 days tho me thinks how could i forget, covid? what happened? i rlly am happy that there will be vaccines soon for minors but i really do not want to do face to face, ur social anxiety is bad anybody die? idk just curious did you ever get rid of the bad habits? or trying to? are you mentally alot better now? hope you are big man. haha. i just called myself big man big man. hah how r u n chels? rn ur really scared of pushing her away because you tend to push away people you like for a long time because of, idk, annoying them? accidentally texting them a long message at 4am? oh yea hows ur sleep schedule lol, rn its ok but u had a breakdown on sunday cuz u couldnt sleep and u had to wake up early for school, it suprisingly worked and you passed out in no time. do you have a mic? dunno why ur so obsessed with having a good mic i know u hate topics abt ur bday but, what happened? did anything happen? do you still believe in love? rn its very much 50/50, well, maybe less than fifty. did ate zani and mom ever break up??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? idk just curious did u ever cosplay lol, or still too broke? or just dont wanna? rn u are a lesbian and genderfluid, how bout now? or like, then, or, YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN did u ever come out to mom as genderfluid, or kuya? moms a transphobe lol i dont feel comfy coming out to her rn fav color? red rn heh im running out of questions, so maybe this is it for now, no i wont do my school work, r u crazy? one last question tho, i always ask this, hope the answer is yes, but, are you happy? anyways, hope your well and okay. signed, mazo - September 14, 2021 - 4:29pm

Epilogue

about 19 hours later

hello!!!!!!!!! it's funny cause I'm ALSO writing this instead of doing my school work..... some things never change I guess LMAO

hello mazo!!!!!!!! it's mazo, I still really like the...

Esy nmea omaz.
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Adn ogt kyoa aniz oolaoooaaaam yevhte' yeah rpoe eta scleo im are rey'the alcls kaoy tho.
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Gah morf dnma giw poheeps etnh uesd a ouy it rvene oofgy hha tghubo. Hte utsj wgi nurt fi i gitints moal rhtee l'il ese rnoadu ehndutocu.
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Im' gfrduledien ma i nda ialbsen nad het aecroa lleoh erptuscm orf ni and both eulnbae,dl tasixuyel dneegr. Ro ufcaelx fi fclpclyiiaes t'htas moal a thnig lrouxfa ro.
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Ot ym teh leyarl buoat l,eictdry mmmm ened !to lefe emco egrned n'tod i ethm i uto hn'etva fo any.
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Os crool edr ear fr ew debas utforiave ltlis.
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Oayk hcitb tiwnigr danst uyor evlo td'no ide u btu tish i hw tsfu terfa ok nutl'dco uyo nkwo yuo het lutig idd.
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Ganon :) 'ttahs it uot a-m- all ysa 'mi i ggifrinu.
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Ayok omza erwe'. Wll'e be koay.
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N,gdsei.
Meserbtep - 51, azmo 2220.

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