A letter from Sep 10th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, It's me, You. But 1 year prior. I'm writing this to see how far we've progressed. You remember the time we became severely depressed. Those 4 months, where we struggled to get up during late afternoons, just waking up after overthinking for countless hours until late. The nights we spent venting, through clouds of vapour at the sound, no, the sounds, so melancholic, it left you numb. We started schema-based therapy in June. We took a step forward to save ourselves because we knew that no one was going to be there to help us. When we were bullied for years. When we failed to meet expectations. When we were mistreated despite being kind. There was never anyone there we could share our feelings with. Times changed though. We became this emotionless block of human flesh, hateful, spiteful, but never vengeful. Hateful of ourselves, our surroundings and every aspect of our lives. We're not doing that anymore. It's time to start loving ourselves. I hope you're doing the same. I'm struggling. I do struggle, I do get demotivated, I do procrastinate, I do develop bad habits, but at the same time, I DO want to get better. So in one year, I hope things have gotten better. I hope I'm driving (finally). I hope we can travel wherever. I hope you went on the night city bike ride. I hope you have more self-discipline. I hope you're more fit. I hope you look hella drippy. I hope you have a better fashion sense. I hope you helped your youngest brother's transition into high school. I hope you've started to love yourself. I hope you've developed a bit of a passive income. I hope you've become more emotional. I hope you've developed more social skills, I hope you've got some control over your social anxiety. I hope you'e able to focus again. And I hope for soooooo much more. But baby steps. You've got this lad. If anyone does, it's you. Cause y'know, Ethan hates being complacent. But what do I hate? Well... "I hate wasted potential, It crushes your spirit." Make sure you keep reading them self-improvement books, meditate, work out, watch Motivational videos, inform yourself about mental health, watch Jordan Peterson, Dr. K, Psych2Go and Sisyphus 55. Stay happy! But above, don't be someone you're not. Because that's who I am. And that's not what I want. Please, Take Care! M. P.S. Have I cried anytime during this next year? You know we haven't cried in 3 years. Maybe If I cried I could let loose a bit. Lmaooo

Epilogue

about 10 hours later

To the "me", who had lived in the year, one previous.

We've come far.

I'm thankful, for the fact that you wrote this letter.

Truly, I'm grateful.

Over the last...

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Eerpedvsre ew btu.
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Ginvdi,r 4 i tadrtse teims freta stte laliyfn eth elbita ivgnird alfgini. Im' brars(,naemgsi waae)r.
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Ni rdah rstlggeu isemsetmo visute,irny i itsll 'tsi. I 'im korw noyl eht atlpry ecuabse uro tjbuecs flimaali mhoe ngfcatfei shti seemet,sr issues resntep ntwa uecaesb oen dgoni sloa r,moe ot fo tub.
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I !bjo a fo owkr! rtdetas kaenispg.
Ins,seusb ptreuponotiis ,hulnfaktly the konirgw it is as as 'im ecni altegfur rof to nad humc fro gloren susroeevl ew're krow in,gead no het crexenepei famiyl ew in.
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Rayes 'athts ties,sgrsn dad andtew tis' rwlaiya htta oe,rl fwe to tol ta owhrt vldoiven a tge ?ouseprvi nrtuecr uor it fteon but itirysiolbenp,s of tjrcpeo stime emmerbre ni dan a my. Ttionapmr 'ahstw nad 'reew agnnrie,l ash'tt.
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Nnlfiuy rmtoroow were' no gongi a yihdlao geuo,nh. Rtpealna oiievsprsnu rsfit ihwtotu itpr rou. I ,gcxiinte kwon. 21 anoegrspi deahed raeok e'wre adn rfo to dyas. ,mzas fo pgour tmhi va om,hado 5, tihw a itll' dna eb.
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Sse,ruirp psrueirs.
Reven oyu edeecxtp gc og neibg swa eewr bet' but tiiiynlal sadpcrep njp,aa huh? cik,y lwel to os tgo eolwh ebrdrso eht htat j'aaspn amnte taht ot. Tub it si popele awth pdpoerd esom si ti lrsue,t a o,tu ,'nowky sa.
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Sa etnah erve 'eerw tlils lecso sa htiw. Dton' uro emti yan atht ktihn i cangeh day and oson lwil ,1. I do ro(n tanw it to. ).
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We ew've xyuetnedplec, ewf eogn ihwt nda estmi elcso yelarl nad a v,ikcy to raabc olsa otg wthi tyndie emth. .
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Vaeh i udcol evha pdee dan ohthugt lehl latsk the ,htiw dha i erpsno sa aethn i ahtt lwudo ylon yalswa lfutisginh fwe be heva eneb utb diyent iuqte a. .
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Yuo m,suer vj, daem u,trasmd onkw and, iun dna pwisy eht emso ,sbeur sae,tm we ckennisam. Anunrou,tflety etrsm afgilnl utb a aws veoyeern eerht ltlsi tou gdoo ewetebn e,yenrveo on iwth oyur. Nwko we lrol how ouy.
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,rlvleao.
Tetbre 'ilsef eonttg.
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Eavh we ,monye were' agmnki ufn can and veha senfrid vrehewre we we.
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Efli rtfselsus tbu eifl '?nokwy ths'at sltil omes,semit sgte.
Ahrpepi qtiu satl fieglne adn tela hceams wna'st we r,aey erh ncceotn i thwi n'coltdu eatryhp.
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Ubt thni'egversy wto'n tpcef,re i yas ettbre si't.
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No ser,edepsd itlls r'ewe r(knigwo it. ).
Iyrngt dan sbte rou.
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I'st ot yigrnt lylswo, menogiths od, si dna er'we lyoswl mnigiropv selvol-fe evry.
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Pstes se,nertcimn mllsa. .
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Hwta t'ahts strta!em.
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A nad we y!b vlie ynl,ifla peadtdo hserpa ew.
Wn!o irhte aehc to.
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Beremrme eusr aemk ot it.
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Lv,eo hcum.
Eufrtu yaer the ni neo fos,yrelu.

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