A letter from Aug 21st, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I know this is going to go down badly for you if this is a no, but is covid stil a thing? I'm so done with it and it's so frustrating trying to find out more about it just to get a "we don't know yet".Context: delta variant's been here for a month or so and is ******* everything up, and Papa also got covid a week ago or so. Masks are still going to be on for this school year, but I think they're planning to take them off after a month? Sounds like a horrible plan, mainly because of the exagerated number of Karens who think "it's gonna change their DNA and make their already menopausal bodies infertile!!!". I think I'm just done with it all, I've gotten my hopes up so many times just to be disappointed in a matter of hours, or worse, I build up my expectations, and last minute, they cancel. I have way too many examples, it's just depressing. This is seriously going to give me trauma ahhaha. Also adding to the fact that not very social Mia has to be even less (yes it's possible) social, mainly when people are having unsafe parties and whatnot, so I just have to scroll through all those stories while in my bedroom eating chocolate to eat away the sadness. I tell myself that maybe if covid wasn't here, and I'd be able to go to a big party, I'd finally open my people circle, but let's be frank: I have not been invited to a multitude of parties, all of the parties I have been invited to (through friends of course, who would ever think of adding Mia to the group chat, unthinkable!) are filled of people I can't stand and well people in Switzerland are just not fun. Anyways, just reminding you that it's okay if you hate the Swiss, 'cause they suck, and if you had a lame junior year, it's normal 'cause your school sucks ***! ...Another tough question. How did the first partials go? I'm not really that worried 'cause they're all classes we're okay at, but I'm just checking in. Just a reminder: YOU ARE NOT NATHAN. It's okay if your test scores aren't as good as his! Honestly, I'd be really worried if they were... Also, if you did **** up, you can still catch up on the 2nd since they have more value (not sure how you're gonna do that but I believe in you, you can do anything if you put your mind to it!!) I guess that's it. Whenever times get tough, just remember: at least I'm not 15 year-old Mia, **** was she depressed! Nah jk, I mean it's not wrong but... If you're in a bad place, you're the only one with the key to leave the... place? What I'm trying to say is: you control your life, you choose if it's ****** and if it's not, I know it sucks to have this kind of responsibility, but having the ability to choose is liberating. Also! Good luck on uni applications! You got this! It's ok if you don't get into your #1 school, aka UCSB, there are a bunch of other great options. This Mia is absolute **** at essays, but I believe in you! Yes, you've worked hard enough, you've done a bunch of extracurricular and you're passionate, so I truly believe YOU GOT THIS! Don't forget to breathe. Mia

Epilogue

about 17 hours later

Hey PastMe,

Yeah, covid is still a thing... Well, I had almost forgotten about it until I got here at UCSC for the Summer Session, and people had to start...

Of stset etpoiivs oging ebceusa oehm. 'oyeru fwe ceuebsa em nbee rof eyrv engakips it hwiel psaln rdaed fo ertbt!e thi btu wlihe of vaeh shtan' my fo s'ti taht nwo, edlnclaec a that in so a.
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Fnedir gdceanh sridalactly uory sha ielcrc. Guess ofr uto i you, ta'enhv i llwe, s"hteo wn!o sncie orev eayr lgirs" ughn ithw. Ttha tpursop i teynesaisll that ouy eoeppl of tt,ha nstadie os ced,gnah purgo apnetrt tfdfierne ym isrfden i has or wasyla esls have of ysstem ro omfr estb a(ll epelop p,c)seal mroe w'stna dsernioc hatt ym epsrniifdh cleotss 5 ahd utsj eth. . . On lyerla tpsreai est!sat ofr i uybs ibg asw e,noc i ubt iagoersn og dan lsalemr ey,raomn ot psnla, etfl ntod' i foebre tlils i seekenwd connlu,etqyse hte the ofr.
Otu htta gnvsiene i taht mssi siefo, i urogp asy 'ntod i essug ,rioivetc wger atth dna dnenkru ubt ihwt n'atc i just toesh elohw o,rugp of. Tlsli veileeb i wyas i my nidf teg r,dknu me. Adsd' atht ym and i nda a ,lelw btshai odnuf illtte rdennciersogi nad now no roiwred ntau otu wree sahclcool,i ym i gsseu im' auy,ctall rnrhdgaftae my esdi.
Ufn trehe neve etreh unf eryttp in er!nsziadwtl pleeop ear tbu, yugs ear. . . For ciliolfayf ongig woh ubt slacs ehva atnh cisen weev' lew,l ni ltnrgifi tou elss laom cnesi o'deuvlw eben ,ayhe t,homn f!doiyrneb i a csaullya dna ew'd !hhuto?g!t nebe a oyln rynaauj antgdi beark igpnsr. G,igon file i vloe ihts swa flxe el)fi ym ubota on csssueulfc voel eigttgn exdctie asw i gtuthho hwti rdws,o eon but telert my itlsl the asw ugsse erhew i my ehfsipdrnis who i ot i edsak wsa you wirdroe (ni hoetr.
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Od'tn oyrnmea aaw,ynys eht heta i sswis. Of so won m'i hatt eialgn,v hatedtca bmceeo ikdn lpeope 'evi of to emos drreiwo lytlaauc,. Efli htiuotw ot o'tdn hetes ise,t ntwa i m'i dan temh of oles sracde. Mean, ifle sguse elos 'tnwo to mhet )i,de il'l new i( lpeoep i gigon dan on i nto dna tbu, teehr'y esgo teme. Utjs ts'i. . . Nnaog rbbylpoa uthr 'ist.
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The wnte prtlasai sitfr. . . Sjtu oodg ton ,well as i as gthhuto ogdo teyh rlus,ets rwee. 4 edlaif i hwit i a 3, aws osthryi hwit as hugthto nda otn csium a as odog. Autbo ralevol so swa sa sa ubtao my i emmdbu hghi tcepxede ont n(ad ,5 i ocres ahtt itlsl gbein uto dna )am. . . Dna sa nto na'ashtn sa hhig. . . Utb it mi' tneigtg veor. .
Hte lsrao a 'sthta pastlria, the csnei m'i endsco etlitl hwta and al,gnere ofr ni acylipelse uxnsaoi adlfei gtngtei i nrfehc. . . . Ahtt eb rtcide sefmyl ifen to kepse dna ognig sith tond' mi' i em neeryove fro goneuh vige so btu tath tneigll utffs. . . Amnaigz fmro ti vloe paest eauecbs 'im i u,oy ujst peke it em that okgw,rni equot nterai dan jtsu agonn elt.
To altbiiy eth scuks htis ouy uyo" nregbailti hittsy kown fi nad of ndki i s'ti oecsho iaghvn yuro it to fi binri,oelpissty is vhea ontclro e,fil i'ts not, cohsoe ubt. ".
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Pirapnhgaoc also 'im ym ohw thta's sopatnilpaci i uni sesgu. Atth hsclsoo myan sayawny uohtg i ton piglyanp soulhd eb ilhargt os ot i'm. I ayeurfbr, ro odrwire dlsouh ni i knith fo rgiceinve hwne tbu tigrhal be tgo was i te,iorscenj a elltti ldfserare lot a tannah. Sa as not ifled dn'uhlsot ighh 'mi eb namgii iceeotiptmv and my.
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Sesgu i lwle shtt'a ti. Iertw mi' ot nagon of lteert 2320 rueutf em og a w,on. Ofr evyr 'mi rdreiow her.
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Yd,ooebg.
Ami.

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