A letter from Jul 25th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Today is July 25th 2021. It's currently 11:47 pm and I'm currently watching Joe Rogans Experience #1518 - David Choe while scrolling through tiktoks. Today was a rather peaceful day and I wonder if I'll ever have another day alike this one. I was able to communicate and connect to the ocean, as I sat there and very much soaked my anxious self into the water, I felt all my worries rush away. I brought my crystals, Howlite and Lapiz Lazuli and basically cleansed it with the beauty of nature, the ocean itself. I told the ocean my deepest thought and dreams and as I sat there I understood what peace meant. I started to heal, to forgive and to grow. That although the beginning stages of my life weren't as pretty; that my story may not have such a happy beginning, but that doesn't make me who I am..in fact it's the rest of my story..who I chose to be. That's when it hit me. I don't know if it was when I went to eat with my family mom dad sister, when he started all that future talk and the lack of support to guilt tripping me, where it finally hit me a million times. The thing that holds me back..where the lowest of energy's manifest themselves. The person who holds me of my wings to fly from my biggest greatness. I finally figured out the karmic cycle who holds me back from my life, from living this beautiful life. My father is the enemy, the generation of curses, was always him. The way he gets to me so easily and how I let him knowing how powerful I as an individual can create. So I choose to be silent at his perspective of a man, I choose to not speak the amazing things I am bound to do. In that moment I smiled to myself knowing that I didn't let him get to me. I smiled to myself because I knew I'm bound to do so much more than just the bare minimum. Future me from a year from now, I hope you still don't forget your power or how beautiful that smile of yours truly is. You are healed from the wounds that are not your fault. Smile a little more. You are a powerful being.