A letter from Jul 21st, 2021

Time Travelled — 12 months

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, So I wrote myself one of these for three years from now but I wanted to also do one for 1 year and just lay out what I've been struggling with or pondering lately. I've been struggling with traumas from my family lately which I'm in therapy for. I've also been struggling with all of the hate, negativity, bullying, physical assault, ect toward myself and other vegan animal rights activists for simply speaking up for innocent animals that can't speak for themselves. (Watch Earthling Ed on youtube). I overthink my activism, always worrying if I'm putting negativity out in the world or beating myself up if I didn't stay as composed as I would've liked when people come at me physically or with words. I am doing a lot lot lot better than a year ago with my relationship anxiety, but I still struggle with my appearance sometimes. I notice a lot of other public letters on here focus on wanting to lose weight, be happy, graduate, figure out what they want to do with life, ect. Reading them makes me pause and realize how much we are all the same. Which is nice, after feeling so disconnected from society after what I've been through as a vegan activist. I know that by the time I read this I won't be struggling with everything I said anymore. Because I trust my manifesting abilities, my re-programming, my craft, ect. And I know I will be so much more happy and comfortable in my own skin. And so it is. We get to decide that our lives will be better from this point on. All of us do. I have manifested the love of my life, I'm pretty sure I have clarity about what I want to do. It's really all about liberating myself from the past now. It's late at night I'm here with Shitten and I gotta go do some yoga, I'm currently doing the 365 day yoga challenge which will be over by the time you read this:). You, reading this, will have overcome these issues. And so it is!!! You are so happy, thriving, blissful, and surrounded by love. You and your love are doing better than ever before, with all of those blockages long left behind. And we never look back. We are proud and confident in our own skin, not wanting to be or look like anyone but us. I can smell the candle in a tea cup on my altar. Today I played guitar outside until mosquitos gave me some raging bites. I was doing really excellently with being on my phone less, but some discomforting things lately made me"relapse" plus I decided I was being too hard and constricting on myself so I kinda let my no phone plan go. I figure I will get back to it though. By the time I read this, I no longer have anxious or depressed physical sensations for no detectable reason lol. I'm done with that shit. I'm doing everything to heal. It is done, very soon, certainly for you now as you read this. It feels good doesn't it? Remember when you wrote yourself a letter on New Year's Eve right before 2020, and you felt the feelings of your lover and you KNEW it? And then you got with him that March/April? Well if we can do that, we can CERTAINLY do this whole not being held down by our traumas and past thing. I am so free from the past, coated in love and forgiveness, and all my loved ones including ones I no longer connect with are healthy, protected, thriving, and happy. AND SO IT IS!! Alisia Demi

Epilogue

about 16 hours later

Dear past struggling 2021 self,

The only thing that did not come true was completing the 365 day yoga challenge.

But that was an ego-motivated goal so I am not...

Epust atoub atht. Ti hgeuon bsauece nad eyojn i tstlynocsine do enyjo gyoa it own i.
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Fo saw owkr yaer rahd 2012 a sahdwo. Kboo nde fo eloyetmpcl uor het ngnfidi at dan okcr eth by asw tih 1022 t"daetcha ottomb a asevd dan inptearholis rfnmoaetrds. Hoyetr btho to asye uobta ceno eerw hsit " ohw zgiirlane tacamehtnt our we dan cnsceie edra esolv ilsnftcoc. Oal,s fruo eth tanerseemg teh kboo. Eb abcllsaiy lare to aehv dan a so ryc who aer shgitn fscoilntc from pphya hiwhc ew fra on udse si. Amingk 'mi /ddsdi"ai htwa ertrcoc adn sllki ffetec ot nisteda dan sith, tno selaep eorplryp nigaply to 'osetrh iblo is leilntg gkoninw "hits rbeen uoy seagm laitdavign nda het rincigpcta dsene os wnrbo, satgitn dgtssnmansderuiin eht eiglesfn fi ownk use ttha eecixres hwo roesnp adn ruo not hatt by nca oru het ycdl,teri stmo ingod ehca riengda fo of eour'y troeh npoutm,asssi ytrso duiemasngdnsrt,ins cnouamtim,noic nowd cfnclotis melfsy eht tidcre tbuao.
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Nto dan e'nstdo ,do ahrtpey het tsju eisstln rnsoep erhew wrok ptmpro tsis naint,ghy nad a vnee jaunorl ,aenol for otn klta deso feorf to yuo. Okbo hte and utrdsdeann teh creso rmaatu aols boyd lto i eettrb epeks i a aerd a llecad nwo. Nwo aevh oesn inredseosp with i eucbase ierlddd nad aellyitlr of ueescab taeb and enler,da nad sdadnngitensriusm ntdsaei fotnilcc fo iormr-namgrgpe ps,ysiohn i mdni, fofimsra,inta ontplesrisiah wthi all ,kieri ttlnroipyam tmso hlyaeth ahve edonttmii,a fo pphya ohsrte my of nda avgnih la,l. Anc iblysosp yxtinea tbea os chum sa i hvea a sa od laso rsnpeo. Few sueca esspsa be now nniwokg eth uohr,s roto teyxlca as adn ccsosouin vere i it, lstsa wniesst i rome elfe a ahtn wtihuto fo eesrdspde nda ti ma to the er,env ti leab vneer. Ntewbee fra efw and is vnee nad thta.
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An gralhneit hitw nlamia or ym be tcatiivs ,epepol itngyr trheo nsorptee olmsbpre rghsti sath eilk nbgie i ceauseb erwe adsneit asw ,ed nigeb to of femsyl. Hiwt emad ivcsitam hreipoislnat angeshc ): ostiipve wno dna i a vahe smeo. .
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Dan ilfe hvea awth dan trhow i do tuo wtha kwon tlaecxy tzpoiriier my htiw to frdiuge i out xcateyl to nwat athw to i. Wnat gsniht od i nad od ot eoglnr od to shignt lcyatula i on olny i elspea eolepp.
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Eaepc tspa eeymolltpc ta i ma iwht hte. Ot etorhs 'iddtn ddetii adn eheirynvtg i hv,ae ahtt dha nscesrotivano ti i i i tfel tsill lmesfy ogveraf o,urlesc iekl up dndeee vahe. On relogn ma ifdara i.
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No to bsaceue fo ahtt dovai 'mi ,hsoten dene ifnglee ottvdme,ai aurmta reew a my ergrtgi hnpoe it hneop fi gmnetoish ym my nesieg yb asyd sloyivpuer no uwodl. Cenrcno eglorn si no hatt a. Oogd eeaucsb fo i nieetinrtgs atnh ath'ws a ym itergrgs nwo ym ceeabsu im' be lrae can ont phnoe arfaid (ni ffo leif eser,nc wa)y si oerm on a.
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Oalgs teh eusceba so ithw aeviech ednisgn nkiht iewrt so llo, i fo tsath' rvoe all and erftuu i ddneaile a ookt adn chum osrreht ni hnigst a i nwo a tiem eabesuc hmet eary ttlsere orresth agev mntaesip mi' lal tshee ov,el gnnoa can thst'a. As vnige keats lauylsu tols tis' ruytl teh a as long galo iemt.
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Loev to 0122 ngisnde dan os anilgeh flse ym hcum.
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:) mdei ialisa.

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