A letter from Jun 29th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, i haven't written in a while. i'm starting counselling tomorrow and i'm kinda terrified, i really hope it goes well and my counsellor is nice. does it help? did u send that message to meghan about panphobia, did it help? have u come out to luca yet? what about everyone else? martha sent me some earrings, i'm so happy about that. how's college? remember to keep going things for when u feel sad or anxious or stuck: - make snacks the way ur parents would; as in put them on a plate/bowl - watch ur comfort videos - curl up in a ball - let yourself cry - have a nap - have a shower - go rollerskating - text/call ur friends does lucy get better? do i get closer and start opening up more with my friends? appreciate them have you made any new friends have you found out whether you might have adhd and/or anxiety? it's not always shit love your past self

Epilogue

6 months later

dear past me,

i forgot to reply to this lol,
counselling went well, you did it for about 6ish months and then mum stopped booking appointments because she didnt think...

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