A letter from Jun 25th, 2021

Dear Arya, By time time you get this letter, an year would have been passed. I'm so confused. Confused about whether should I daydream or not. I live life as it is. I keep falling, I keep getting up. I can now hear the chirping of birds. Don't know if it is an alarm or real chirping. It's currently 5:46 and I'm writing this when I'm supposed to be studying french. I did complete some of my art work. I had to. Or else maybe I'll get detention that I never had in my life. Well, that's good. I seriously don't know what they do in detention or work sanctions. Now, I'm thinking about I wasted some of my time by reading group chat of my previous school. Everyone is so wierd. Even me when I chat. I wish I had gone to school instead of lockdown but I didn't have a choice. I seriously wish I had a reason to love my crush. I had. But that moment passed. The deep staring and the smiles too. That deep voice. That side hug, never got any further. We were friends? Forget it, I couldn't even talk properly without blushing. Because he did too. He blushed too. He was the one who held my hand at a random moment. Yes, in front of everyone. You might have guessed who I'm talking about, now. But what now? I shifted seas. I'm in a wierd unknown place, with a wierd crazy life and unbelievable imaginary daydreams, about you know who. I just had to write all this and I'll be dead if it is read by my family anytime now. Now I again hear the chirping of the birds at 5:59. See, I'm writing continuously for like fifteen minutes. The blinds are still closed. But I can see the sunshine. I have to get ready for school. I've got the worst time table today, really!! Now, it's 9:32, night, and this is unbelievable! I'm NOT sleepy and there is still light outside! Weird. My day was not awful as I thought it'd be, and I even learnt a lesson! Live life as it is. Enjoy your single status. You will find love later. Till then enjoy your kid self and sing and dance until you find the perfecto! There are way more cool boys than you think, not one! You're still 13, now (while I write). Deep staring and holding hands may wait. Atleast till MIT. Forget him, you know. Arya I know you're da best and can do anything. Go rock girl! Today I had music which gave me such inspo. Thank you music! Special thanks to my BF Parisa who helped me cope much AND, for her having a crush lol☺ Love from your past self, Arya🤗👍❤❤