A letter from Jun 17th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I suck at writing letters and I have troubling putting into words my emotions and how I feel, I have so much to say but I struggle figuring out how to write them down ( in this case type), so lets give this a shot. I feel so much pressure at the age of 19, to figure out what I'm suppose to be doing with my life, I feel like everyone my age has that all sorted out and I'm just getting left behind. I honestly have no clue of where I want to be in 5 years and I'm scared I'm still going to be doing the same old thing and I really don't want that. I want to be doing something I'm actually interested in. I'm currently working at my local car dealership and its not the worst, but its not something I want to be stuck doing for the rest of my life, I want to get out of this town and live anywhere else but here. ( We will see how that goes....) I'm currently the ripe age of 19 and living through a pandemic. I moved out of home for the first time and brought my very first car!! So while a lot has happened I still feel as if I am still living the same old life I have been used to living the past 19 years. My 20th birthday is coming up.... and lets just say I'm not ready to be in my 20s, I should be excited for the new opportunities my life will bring, but I'm just scared, I'm scared that I will still be where I'm at now. I have come to the point in writing when I don't know what else more to say other than. I hope your doing okay. I hope you know your loved. Whatever you decide to do, you will be okay. C x

Epilogue

6 days later

Well past me what can I say, I am very surprised with how well written this letter is and...

I who i swa hwo iwht pneo ltfe loas eegsxpinrs oschked ni.
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Ym hweil meos dna to ,hdcngea lsdo nad tsle back iginvl i ar,c heav a be wtih oging i spartne am ma nwo home strfi ni veyr ttseinwe i now msee sckbrwaad binge tsghni ayisng ma ym ifentldiey by i rtnea' ehty tigsnh dan arey my hvea rledo tsih.
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A esbt i hte nad od idecdde noe psot heav escdioni rhiaepp i on tluncdo' tlavre! my ot oyialdh do ofr levae aevh itwh with i uecl tslil i fo rinkwog in gyrirwon to rnsdfei ilef to i osthmn no whlie yawlsa eb evah neo eht ivsa 2 i wiht eavh hawt i tihgn tawn od eam,d dan my wnetda daacan dna.
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Od'nt wath onghip i tub ni to awnt efil ni soem grwno me ucle get will i i sitll my aechng tpu evah ma idcrenoit od 5 no asyre stih. Do it i vahe eadi wlli sailf tahw i on lal blutaelyso btu fi. .
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C x.
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