A letter from Jun 17th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I suck at writing letters and I have troubling putting into words my emotions and how I feel, I have so much to say but I struggle figuring out how to write them down ( in this case type), so lets give this a shot. I feel so much pressure at the age of 19, to figure out what I'm suppose to be doing with my life, I feel like everyone my age has that all sorted out and I'm just getting left behind. I honestly have no clue of where I want to be in 5 years and I'm scared I'm still going to be doing the same old thing and I really don't want that. I want to be doing something I'm actually interested in. I'm currently working at my local car dealership and its not the worst, but its not something I want to be stuck doing for the rest of my life, I want to get out of this town and live anywhere else but here. ( We will see how that goes....) I'm currently the ripe age of 19 and living through a pandemic. I moved out of home for the first time and brought my very first car!! So while a lot has happened I still feel as if I am still living the same old life I have been used to living the past 19 years. My 20th birthday is coming up.... and lets just say I'm not ready to be in my 20s, I should be excited for the new opportunities my life will bring, but I'm just scared, I'm scared that I will still be where I'm at now. I have come to the point in writing when I don't know what else more to say other than. I hope your doing okay. I hope you know your loved. Whatever you decide to do, you will be okay. C x

Epilogue

6 days later

Well past me what can I say, I am very surprised with how well written this letter is and...

Asw poen felt i owh ihwt kohdsec who ni i gseipxersn slao.
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Nwo oledr ni frsit am genib oems nwo mheo nsgiay eb i hsnitg ,negahcd wasdcbrka whit yb nda a tesweitn reya elts ggoin fndieityel hsti ma my rca, i am i yvre elihw nad i dna etpnsar ldso gihtsn to hvea vahe abck ea'rnt my my htey ginivl emse.
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Have i tawh do cldnu'ot avsi ot hte nda thwi wrknoig the a i leif sltil i of ecindois i ni i on eno i wiht wlhei awsyal dan r!leavt dhoyail ot iwht mnhsto i 2 ofr dna ntigh ntwa my ot noe evlea best cdaana lceu mdae, eatnwd vhea no eb do heva od vaeh ym hppiare iyonrwgr nisrdfe spto cdeided.
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Esyar me i on itsll tanw tpu elfi in tbu osem ni my 5 ucel hist ogrwn am i ot whta ecaghn do hongpi cinoidter i veha wlil dton' teg. Vhea tbu if ieda twha i lal on od ifasl lytbloasue ti i will. .
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X c.
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