A letter from Jun 12th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, hi, how are you? i know very generic for a letter. so i’ve been putting this off for awhile because i’m lazy and don’t want to do it. also because i feel like i’m doing this for no reason. i don’t even check my emails. well rn i’m checking my emails to clear storage but that’s besides the point. i want to ask the good questions but i’m writing this in the middle of the day on a random saturday so not too many good questions are in my mind. did we start cutting on a daily basis again after summer was over? do we still feel like pulling out our hair, screaming, and punching and kicking everything when we feel off? how have our grades been so far? i’m expecting 4.0 so i’m most likely going to be disappointed. sorry i don’t have faith in us. how are things with b***? is he still in our life? if so how are things with him? i hope good. is our relationship with mom still the same? has she gotten better yet? did dads rehab plan work? does dad have full custody or did nothing happen like always? how’s our relationship with dad? has the full truth abt everything come out? are we still close-ish with anna? i would say she’s my favorite sister over ara***** but that’s because ara***** is still young. is our relationship with ara***** still good? i hope she’s able to mature and grow normal despite everything. do we still have the same amount of friends(7)? if we have less what happened? if we have more was it because of me? did the bullying continue into this school year? did we get caught with discord or snapchat yet? if we did how was ur mental health after (and physical too probably)? did we decide to do any after school activities or no? idk why i’m asking these things as if everything is gonna magically change drastically in 6 months. i humor myself sometimes by trying to be deep and edgy or whatever. i’m so cringe i make myself hate myself. i’m gonna go fuck myself idk why i try to care this is dumb. try to find the motivation to write another letter like this for 15 year old me, ok fatass? lots of love, me from june 12th, 2021 <3