doing better now

hi, i'm doing better now. i've been working out and eating healthy pretty consistently. i know i was doing that before but it wasn't for the right reasons; now, i'm doing it for myself. i'm doing it so that i can feel happy and healthy. the goal isn't to be perfect, the goal is to be the best version of myself and i really feel like the exercise and healthy food has made me so much happier than junk food eer did. i'm proud of myself and i hope you're proud of me too. but even though i am doing better i still struggle with body image sometimes and i don't think that will ever go away but i think i'm ok with that now. i still wish to be skinny every once in a while but that isn't my main motivation for working out. i'm glad that i've finally gotten better at understanding the way i think and i'm also getting better at reminding myself that just because someone else is pretty does not mean that i'm not. i want to continue this way because i feel so much better. i do still think about starving myself but i haven't gone through with it in a while, so i think i'm getting better. well that's the end of the update and i hope that you are the happiest, healthiest, kirra that you can be. i love you and i hope that ur ok.