A letter from May 20th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, 👁👄👁 How are you? This year has been hectic. I haven't gotten my covid vaccine yet but things are starting to let up around here. I'm slowly getting through my breakup with Karl. He was an *** but I really loved him and that's what hurts the most. But there's this really cute neighbor kid that lives in the apartment complex. He has black hair and we ride the bus and walk home together, as we have to. I don't even know his name lol! But I see him tomorrow for in person school and I'm so excited. I just got glasses today, I hope he finds them cute. Do things ever go on with him? Are you friends? ❤🌟Boyfriend and girlfriend?🌟❤ God, he's not *** like Dante is he? If he is I'm going to throw my phone. He seems really sincere and nice and I hope things go smoothly. I can't stand another Jayce, honestly. I really hope you're at least friends. Lord knows I need a friend, haha. God, that sounds desperate. Ignore that please. I hope you're not reading this aloud. 8th grade is okay. My grades are terrible. But I'm working to make them better slowly. I'm doing all my homework for once no matter how much I do or don't want to. I'm powering through it. Paigey has been a big help, always there for me. Was a sweet bean. Time is flying by. A week feels like only 2 or 3 days. A month feels like just a week. I'm not sure how to feel about it. On one hand, I suppose it's kind of nice. But on another, it just means all the closer I get to having to go to dad's. And that's not nice. He's moving t ok Tennessee this summer and it has me a bit worried. I hope the place won't be dingy. And I hope I will actually have a real room, not a basement. That would not be nice. But I suppose you already know how that went. So you're neither cringing right now because you know what is to come for me or you're nodding because it was alright. Please be the latter 🤞🤞 lmao I hope you're doing well. That's pretty much all. See you whenever the next year is scheduled for. 2024 or 2025 I think. Well then. See you later. Keep doing what you're doing, you're doing great and I'm proud of you. ❤

Epilogue

5 months later

Hey, girl. I'm doing alright. Depression's back stronger than ever but I'm powering through it. Honestly, I barely even think about Karl anymore. I don't even count him as being...

Otirinpehlsa uatlca na. Wree ma,ne uyo finrdes lnoien gusy i. Itrotpnam gib or stna'w it thta. Now yera ago, nad rlbeopsm hhogrut raondu tsla ot rwok speko ahd he a saw he to ot him meht bterte his nkorigw hrhtoug i gte.
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Omecbe saklw rsdfine owlud tihw dki ,mhi llac atht yaelefctfaonit romf sa og ratle me ot godo oyu wthi wdon oyu eht woudl bu,s on. Aveob regda she' a su. 'isnt eh yag. Eht up he ginlik ur,msme ouy oto idd ovre dne. As etn'erw nmeyrao oyu btu by teim desrittene tath. Atwn if uyo riwgtin d'otn be uto be a yoaremn i htrgi eh hloaslw enev ntedru thiw as tib hist wkon imh nda wo,n yuo rfidesn am ot ot.
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But efatr reyibodfn uoy eemvbron eh did gte whti obker a ouy ekew up a dnruoa. E'vhatn otok ewf tme twih ortgthee a guy yuo atfre nmtsho ey,t ouy orthnae ot taht idane gte. Uoy oyln sday rakbe up whti him uhhtog wot tsal fbreoe uyo. Hmi n,wo uct cpelmtolye 'oeyuv fof. Nlpteviaumia nad alkr naht dan orwse he's xoict mchu ro vree so o,s eerw yjcea. Ore'uy tsrfi tgare tiwh otgerteh nwo gtuhho dan donrybfie ts'i yruo cakb. Wiht larely imh yppah ur'yeo. .
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Of ,onw o'dtn od owrry a efdsrin tlo avhe ouy. Whit sindoerc eloepp rpteyt not you nad erp tneaicr eyrv "gopr,"u you ot uoy laong to oecls a egt ahev oyu to a btu ,say bgelno elwl 'otnd eyeoenvr be fo. Yuo that kisct uohgrth nith osen tihck and yb. Eosl ntod' tasy 3< hep,o tgnsro nad ryteeh' out ether.
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Rvaaeeg pesasd dan a b vrgeaae hwti otuab t8h htwi a yuo edrga h9t thne agerd na. Iongd yelalr ni darge now oodg 1t0h oyuer'. Emocs btrsbuon fo yuo n'act ietm ltle rwok sogtimeh,n ryve ilysealecp ayhdn it ot aodls ni nhwe tseakr a letitl ehwn oyur of ni do epoepl mtuano uoy cmseo.
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Etnaemsb ouy nda srro,y uoy to eneset,esn dad ptu btu wlil m'i dera, to naagi rfits rty in nhew so a go. Iotn eh oyu'll l,igyegdurgnb ot dan pu mroo a oaplminc wlli ohghut raisutsp uoy mom emvo. Uyo anc ubt three t'si lhel sikd etm age good oyur evoy'u qtncnasaieua wef that a iodnrsce. Omhe uyo yuro nisefdr to wenveher omfr nca ethm minigss latk ryo'ue. Wasaly ereth fro uyo h'yeert.
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Iigncrgn uoy ta for m'i dginond ont nro oyu. Eefl wetro esdded,an nad hewn owingkn woh noleyl a ads oyu uoy i tsih yoln eerw itb. Tbeert lot own hhtgo,u a urey'o i msorpei. You may i vseedrieps iedsseop e'oryu get msroepi dan loaen ouy hte keil tsill bad eu'oyr wodrl tub in eefl ellary not. Trtbee nwo a otl si lief.
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Was edhsdcelu erda 202,2 to dens tsih in. Liweh ti doaunr vercedei ti nluit bkac onw vneer tgo a i ot gndarei ubt. .
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Soem inecs ersow fro of teowr lto het cdanheg gsinth nad the tetber a yuo a or otl ,stih rfo vhea edpepnah. On wne nwe a to dnfi otl fo dna 'yulol yrel eakm nedrisf eelopp. Muraat pceo oyu and hte wthi oems fo elnra enw trnee insgrornudsu to luo'ly vaeh. Vieg amtter neerv uyo grtiny pu ,waht but on.
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Of oyu i eb me pourd wn,o owlud oehp me lilett. Dorup i'm too of yuo,. .

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