A letter from May 17th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I have lots of thoughts about what should I tell you and I'll try to arrange them so they make sense..... First of all I want to tell you that I'm proud of you for who you are at the moment , I believe in you and I believe that you're doing well . I hope you will continue to be that shining sun ray in people's lives and that helpful and comfort friend for everyone. I also hope that you'll continue to be that person that you can rely on and continue to love and appreciate yourself for who you are as a daughter, sister, friend, student and as a human being. So many difficult things have been going on lately , I've become more introverted I'm having lots of trust , stress and anxiety issues....I hope that I'll be able to overcome them and return to the very old and original version of me , that one little loving confident extroverted excited girl that used to share her feelings and problems and allowed herself to rely on her family and friends.... I hope you can be a better and stronger version of who I am right now and that all of these things won't stop you from loving yourself and achieving your dreams. The time you will be reading this you'll be in your first year of high school , things were very stressful and complicated at the end of third prep. so I hope you have overcomed these problems and accepted what the results were. I want you to have more organized life style and I want you to show more of what you are capable of , so you can regain your self love and confidence and not to think that you're useless anymore . I want you to get closer to everyone around you Allah, yourself, your family and your best friends. Rely on them and don't be afraid I hope that you've learned the lesson and chose well this time. Stay safe and healthy,take care of yourself and the ones that you love . Be happy and don't stop chasing the dream you've been chasing almost all of your life. And remember to love yourself always. I Love You...♡︎

Epilogue

about 12 hours later

Dear
PastMe,

I really don't know what to say...I didn't expect that your message will be the best thing to happen this year.

First of all, I'm really thankful for...

Npoesr lieebve in orf turts rnouad rtuseobl wsa oyu to tasl thugoh belinveig snelig trsfi htat me adn in fro ni , hrowt neo i het ogdni , ahd reyve , even ueabcse the nad eysmlf teh me my msoe ierpod vie' tgintrsu salwya.
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Seelbprnios usn ttah oyu nda iipvotse taht olsa i llebeair , am minoofctgr m'i ot uordp inrdfe , yra ltle ,. . . Teh neo vhae i fo dkni nad laywas i sya veen elpsoihitran tiyhangn lhlaa i eno heav idrnsef frtae ro d'otn is het ahve i ggiinv i btu ym anc laelry estb hiwt alyelr llyrae tmoeiemss aticsexotepn i ot het , ighh one aevh brag nyoena tath het i am twih even hgutoh nema thwi gothuh. . Tiaveneg ot me ni sroth eitm ywlsaa ghtotshu gienb surtt or ofr a doog feel yerv ylrael eoeppl olmesrbp eeoyervn ryve ceaf kidn yna , sltil reynoeev i i'm tbu rof zmadea mceo ether by tsrfi i hwo esmostmei rof dna me fo who yeht kile. Vhae is ignbe fro tath to " fo eslyfm “ ma ofr erhet tub het rpduo bnige veneeyor i athrpitse admit oemisetsm i dfnrei lrelay enxigtsahu.
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I acn onerps on nweh im' ahtt hte ynma i a nvigah am llet hsti ubt teim , eevn no nyol vi'e htugho arye enpdde rindfes 'im eylsmf erly nwod atth i tme i ooooso ardh wneh. I e'iv say eahv adem liprotnhiesa myfsel ot'nd i a cna heug gesus tye thta htiw but erosgrps bestla i a. . ?.
Dutsent my aeuidt,et,srrhgs worht so fo a enbig sa haumn sduobt eirf,nd sa nda eavh a i many. . . Onwk gte oerv ti li'l i ubt. .
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But slta dan rsue , tsnghi evtyherngi one geos the ihenngapp too enbe eth in wef omshtn aevh dab hitgn kwon i tfca that ahtt rof myan si.
Sya na htat cna i itltle now of etreovrtx tbi i am a. . Dan ni edsi etebtr rgityn 'lil ot mysadoe eth ? estsrs hpeo i btu esssiu yneiatx 'mi , tusrt to get ngvahi yman yebam wasy ti , aekm efetfdnir meos eafs itlsl ahtt m'i. Ttha all be lgri ti ev'i tnwo' t'is utb a aws licdh as i sreya tsih on i'st teim , sti' laso i'st i nokw goa idd os , but humc eb i inadk , adn tnow' ads i a ryt ustj ot rmttae ywynaa ewf dt'seon thta efart teitll gexciitn i rdha eivl rdah leab lil' was i'st ielf nto ttah woh hwen i leneadr. . Evirnso ? i fo keli vreye mane meet em to di'. Atht ??! be etagr luow'ndt.
To , het ecbeom kiel ovle v'ei lysmfe i taps ivonrse me to , a dlho lla eivg efel hte ni i my dna i fo rntroges try wya need that heops tihtg dasemr i yare. On eanony eynroam i yaw kihnt eylr elryal 'dont siht 'sti better i ,.
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Rlelya amde of , phrahdiss i arvoemec lto ynma became egahcdn ni dsinfer mero i dan nad ochols nhtsgi eyar fnietcnod of hgih cseolsabt ihts reay teh itsrf em , dtisoeu os nmay i a.
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Eb a osem eneb okrwgin urpod vroe , fticeluidfis siltl im' no haelyht ngseei wiht tw'no 'mi ubt ryngit egt lytale ma yslet sroubelt anvhig i layelr ti ubt i gnaivh hignva and my v'ie rhtow up lfei igev os lli' ,.
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Ncgtcapie aehv yawany srttu htiw lyelra icotpxnteesa sa ni vnihga rbsoeltu , hsgnit i m'i high but rglnaee i lalha. Ot msyefl i ot htta alhal nac llet nad rseolc mi'. Tikhn od ahtw me lwil or ot fro me ni dna cuhm lselt em reaht i adn , slnose yaw oramnye tneam i , a thwa ym traohne oehocs rnaedle i is come ym oto e'vi t'nod o'ntd.
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But endrim aekt vreneoye gtinry 'sti os to reca me yahehtl em , ndow eht ot my , up dan bset n'otw ot saty uarnod flmyes egvi great 'mi i fo rhda yevre i reatf rgtyin kreba 'mi whlie ahev cylelsipa. On ︎♡ nad 'im mesfyl elha ym i appyh go onw thta frrwdoa anc. I'm ekli hlep the hwat tfureume nyigtr ufture tlel ?etrhe ts'i , gthnsi us me do to in t'tlhal.
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Yefmsl rngtyi wnayya darh peek i'm onlgvi os to.
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Ecra aerh ti omfr ogdo uoy 'ill keat elvo was , you yuo ll'i fo vrfeoer ienc dna to. ♡︎ irsoemp i.

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