A letter from May 11th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I miss him so much. I can’t text him. The relationship was so bad and not healthy why do I miss him. Like he said I miss the idea of him. I miss being around him I miss what I thought we had. I miss the good things and I need to remember what went down. I’m listening to mama said and I remember him saying that the song reminds him of me. Idk why. I don’t get it but I’m crying. I keep posting on my story on Instagram becuse I know he will see it. I never posted before on it. I think he knows that. I’m drinking a lot and it’s not healthy maybe becuse for other things but I’m not sure. I drink to have fun but is it really fun if I’m just black out everyone. I miss sex with him. I sleep with his stuffy every night. I’m sad and broken when I sleep at Isis house snd I don’t have the stuffy. I need to give him his stuff back but I need it. I’m not sure. He’s moved on and it’s not fair I want to know his secret. I’m not sure what to say or even say anything. Idk I’m probably going to go drink and pretend like everything is ok. And cry while I listen to sad music. No I’m going to pour a cup I’m drinking straight from the glass. Hope you are doing better. See you later Anastasia lots of love from a sad soul that’s broken