A letter from May 1st, 2021

Dear Saskia It's been a year since when I wrote this and I want to check you're okay? I am hoping you're still with Zoya as otherwise, the living situation might be awkward (she's a good goblin too!) I hope that you're not struggling so much anymore, but if you are then I want to tell you that it is okay. We both know that we have struggled for such a long time so what is a little bit more? I hope you know that I am trying right now for you. You'll be graduating from uni, scared as anything and I am trying to sort myself out now to make it easier for you. I know it is hard to imagine a future which is kind of why I am doing this. I want to be able to think 'if I wait it out a little longer then past Saskia would be proud'. I want to graduate with a first but I have had a tough year so I know it may not be possible. I hope Dad is okay and still around. He really loves you, just remember he gets lonely sometimes so check in on him okay? I am about to cry writing this lol I just get scared thinking about something which, if the attempts had worked, may not be happening. I am hoping that I don't try again so that you can read this Saskia. remember that I love you.