A letter from Apr 30th, 2021

Hey there! It’s you from 2021, and yes I have COVID right now! This past year in quarantine has been one of the most influential periods in my life, so many things are changing and the perspective I have with them. Right now at this moment, I’m sort of ignoring the fact that the move to Ave Maria is just a month away basically, I’ll be moving out of the apartment I’ve lived in since I was born. I guess I’m scared that the stuff I leave behind here will be forgotten when I get used to the people and environment over there; I don’t want to forget the connections I’ve made here, and maybe you might not have realized this yet but I’m writing this in Miss A’s english class, such good grammar right? But anyway, I have a lot of contacts of the friends I’ve made here, I don’t know if I’ll be in touch with many by the time I see this again but, maybe it would be a good time to check up on those that are probably living the lives they’ve dreamed of. I don’t want to forget the life I had here in Hialeah, it shaped me into who I am even if there were a lot of scars that came with it. At the time I sent this, I’ve been having a lot of mental stress on a variety of issues that I’ve been talking to Maria about, who I hope you still keep in mind. These problems feel like they won’t completely go away and they’ll still stay chained onto me when I move. I’m worried that when I move schools and make new friends that my problems will get in the way of how I get to know people or act around them. I hope that you have already found that certain someone by the time you see this, that way I can finally move on from the people I’ve clinged onto all this time. It’s ok if you’re not in a relationship, I’m sure that people have accepted you for who you are, which is why I truly hope that you found your Isa. Talking about her, how’s her relationship with K? Are they still as special to each other as they are today? I really hope that K’s doing alright, that our bond has not broken since today. And of course I hope Mami and Papi are doing alright, especially since there’s been some issues in their relationship. I’ve rambled on a lot of things, but overall I just hope you’re doing ok. There’s a lot to move on from and I don’t know at this current moment if life in Ave will truly be as I expect it to be. I don’t know who I will be or what I will get into, and to be honest with you I’m really scared right now man. There’s so many things I want to do already like join the Martial Arts program I’ve been so interested in, finding a friend group that actually feels like the one I’ve been longing for (don’t forget the ones you’ve made here, they are special to me but there’s been that one thing missing that maybe you’ve found in the ones you made), and I just hope that this is what I need. If some of these things haven’t been accomplished, it’s alright, I just hope you’re happy and satisfied with what you’re involved in right now. You’re a valued person and a lot of people love you, don’t ever convince yourself otherwise. Your body type, personality, and just your way of being is unique to you which is why you shouldn’t be ashamed of it. Good luck on whatever it is you’re doing and if you haven’t, check up on ROBLOX or something because it’s been one of the platforms I use to cope with a lot of things. Oh and how’s life living next to our cousins been like? Or Nona’s house, how did that come along? Alright that’s it, I’m out of things to ask because I just really don’t know how things will turn out, I’m leaving it up to God right now that he’ll take me the right way. With lots of love, you from before <3!