A letter from Apr 24th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hi, how was life? When I am writing this letter I am so depressed, because of the final paper. This morning I woke up with an anxious feeling. I am mentally exhausting. Today after discussing with faculty members, I am crying. They didn't judge me or saying a bad thing. But I am tired of this pressure. When is this gonna ended? With all of my skills and stoic philosophy, I believe that I can do anything. Anything, except speaking. I don't know why speaking to people is the hard thing to do all this time. Next week I must to presenting my research result, can I do it? Please tell me I can do it and I will pass all this pressure. Dear future me, please give me the courage and your strength. Help me to walk through this life. Tell me what should I do and where to go. You know that I have nothing but myself, so please help me before I am losing myself. Regards, Your Past