A letter from Apr 12th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, the day is Sunday April 11th 2021, it feels surreal, this time frame we are living in, I'm living in. I had so much dreams and hopes for myself for this and every year that goes by, I don't like to think that life is SO HARD, but sometimes I feel like it really is. But only because I would like to be somewhere else, and im not, im just home. I live in Mexico right now, so, our government really don't care about us, like in general. Ok so English is not my first language but I feel comfortable with it, but no so much, so maybe at some point ill change to Spanish, this is a warning. Anyways, i'm 23 y/o I'm currently in the second year of Industrial design, and my thoughts are generally full regrets. Thoughts of what I should be doing, what I did wrong in the past. I have a lot of examples about it, but you know, or maybe not. I feel like I'm almost completely out of depression but, then again, this is a process, so, sometimes I feel really down, like really down and I want to do dangerous and extreme things just to desperately get out of this mental state, but then everything just goes back to normal, this mood swings make me feel crazy. I'm writing this and hoping that maybe when I read it I will feel better and the world will be a better place, and hopefully im helping it. ok bye, love you.