A letter from April 6th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I'm writing this as of the sixth of April of 2021, with the delivery date being in 3 years, when I'll, hopefully, be in university. Right now, the future is something that highly worries me and makes me anxious. I have been looking for universities to attend yet none captivates me like Coimbra. It's highly renowed and it has the major which i want, history. Am I still pursuing my dreams of becoming a history teacher? Did I end up getting into History or even Coimbra? I'm really worried about starting the internship and also taking the PAP and the exams :/ You probably don't recall it, but at this point I've lost hours upon hours of sleep thinking about my future and worrying about failure. If we did get into university, how have you been handling it, finantially wise? I know that money, wether it's tuition or the cost of living in another city is always a big worry and stuff can get difficult. Knowing myself I'm probably freaking out, if it's the case. On another note, have you been keeping contact with your friends? Catarina, Raquel, Ribeiro? How have they been, message them, tell them you miss them. Right now we have the strongest bond ever. Even with this whole pandemic going on, we still find a way to spend time together and everyone has been really supportive. Hopefully we made some new friends in university! Let's talk boys... or girls! How have you been on the process of discovering yourself? Right now I don't label myself, and am super happy with it. I don't like the fact that society implements labels and wants us to fit in them. I'm way better not labeling my *********! Back to lovelife. Got anyone special? I'm going to give you a quick recap of what's going on right now. There's two boys that simultaneously like me, and yet I like none of them. Oh well, it is what it is! I hope you found your significant other or at least have had someone by now! One last thing before I end this quick letter, what are your interests right now? Do you still like One Direction? I am currently enjoying the minecraft server DreamSMP, do you still watch it or any of the youtubers/streamers involved? If not, please check up on them. Here's a list of people I would love you to check: Tommyinnit, Ranboo, WilburSoot, Nihachu, Technoblade and Tubbo. Are you still on stan twitter? Do you even remeber any of this? Of the nights you stayed up watching streams, lore or not, MCC's, Jackbox streams? Do you remeber Sad-Ist? Alliumtwt? I really hope we don't let go of this because right now it's one of the things that bring me joy! And did you get that ADHD test? I'm planning on taking it, since I have my own suspicions. I'm going to wrap this letter up by asking you to please write another letter for your future self. The website is futureme.org, in case you forget! I hope I was able to achieve my main goals :] Sincerely, 16 year old Juliana. P.S.: I'm going to set the delivery date of this letter as Tommy's birthday, go wish him a happy day!

Epilogue

3 days later

Dear 16-Year-Old-Me,

Wow, it's really weird writing that, I completely forgot about this specific letter's existence (although I still use this website), and it was absolutely shocking receiving this email...

No a tgnh!i tasduye oiftaioinctn.
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Ma shtee ouy ielk ncutrreyl a(dn o,dswr and vnee ni os lto kdnube ahnt to e'hetsr 050 dmesee yaw )tol a lalyre a erp,nso iiastomub i si ttah rmeo a.
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Trdei lrtuntuoeyafn sriohyt and ot ni im' 'eewr coln'dut ttreeb dda uottshgh rea aery but tryuenlrc ew lxacyte si ym htna trsfi lilst ookt i orf s'ti idd, ruyo itinyseur!v ietecfird sfrti espah a mntoh teyhvrgein flrcaiy ruo we'er tiuceadon asitrtgn ofr high gahent!ci a dna lpeuyfloh we ubt !ti b!bya reya bnee nad fsitr !ywa)a a tub ae'tmrss wthi dan t!i and i omm hrci, fo eo(n lal gsinnifih otdwsra fahl to ,hiwt if fwlniloog gte ag,o ntdwea ofardf eray dna !in thwa to got ftera it asnipso khitn dna ot a pay lohocs, dahegin nad my ni nto a'hcrs,elbo owfoll tghhrou tnhe arey pnliegh ym resay i thta 3 apg t:poci scnie.
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You btes ierncgzoed adn to o!caribm oury irdteecfi i ehav uoy tbuoa egsnei naihstoisr the aeslrur it's 9 haecsrte so a twna ereh, be ylacausl etll in umch totlenanrnylaii tshe'er. M. Ot go calss fthig i ont'd yveer cass)l (i ebd os lgiserino nad stya ni slemyf a,yd. Yvitngeher hsti eht eht is as as uoy imcaagl oerm the emn!acabi a tcyi be ni dan dporu utetdns taehme,spro epop,le i nad aoelrlv uelrtgaf ohtghu!t fo c'toudnl rehe ngeib. Nad hda the stnitig eac,p trjea in ullf si rou shoes etftid ae,rodbrw aco,t we toubgh! aaryeld dan est eht teh my eth. . To ieossm(tme on dna so ,em get ytr nugfl tiem ahtt os htme veen asrerl,u ftsa i by sti' so diydg!).
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I amny aemd nad aoclis wne oyu os hsinsriefpd of srdfnei eombce niesc gkniam flee kiel buyfelrtt omre heav e!her i raetcolbofm a vgonim tuo eerv. Elcpa no ot sbet stmoorame shti in swa sola to aer nda dcoleuv' aer i,n is ei,mdlta ulltaeosby knid gthri osme itfs uj dna r,htae nito teh rouy atth imacbor aer peiylecasl ew ythe jtus iernn dna us hmuc !me lal anaraim fo so lewl miza,gan yeeernvo eweodcml dreifn such so a anme uro godo the os tebs ogurp plieceyasl n,aa pdaneehp tirhe c!rcile su, ighnt ehyt dan ppoeel. ):.
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Rae uecpol rowgn het uro of cero neev laong eaurql we nfried redevmo h!eret rev,e ,ayw si pee,olp and eacdngh hgutoh is hev'eyt hoe"m" broeiri nda a hte !esam btu ltisl sa rogup as lstli eddda agaminz the nda. Tyr ceah ceah thaw the we ehwn nda uhcm, i is't hrote we nlgai eorht ot'dn wr'ee ltisl os ,ahtt) ackb uor tiwh paimdenc ees ehcleussd liek sa utb aer (oww botua ofgtro meho uyo ot ese gncixenpriee.
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Oru ielf eovl. . . Or kacl fo. . . Bi kayo wive actenecacp rea opilcnta lcaopdcmeit uhcm we ohw yevr a si adtde i and ew hta'vne yte ithw sosrihetain,lp i!ocpt thob tc,ianorm yek tat!h noneay adn of saw that ot. Itme lla ni ti us i eodlvep eldsa to us! oimeemtss tou :) os oucdl see htem, rae pstiiticmo ikeo!op iefl os on trap fo tnhik srroy rfdensi elpeop ubt that see isht uiyvroslog, rmfo ouy dsetreniet sthi reew coipt, mi' i ehtre me peuloc ifuutflr tnod' soiaspnhtriel emeeds ned, it us aer nkwo edos! a rowk it sywala fo iroresw leki wreeh piaospdtin w,on in for the 'ellw lilw tub to how my oyu live.
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Ruoy etsirntes edmia. . . . Hactw orf i lhewi (eenv ngree, utb mesasrt suicm letnis duse sotlmy na fo klca hatt veimvo/t a fo bti srngee odkugcranb hcum, i ot vahe eilk ohtguh ahctw dcean!hg rhtgi t'odn nsioe lna-urloda l,rig of now no,w eevry yud),st temi otl ertyh'e ot dkni eht eifylnetdi lltite nad of leef a due i. Ilstl ecma h(tidr asy a vhea iamellt- rigth ,vortfaesi henw okcr nito i in dcoivesr trasy teiltl nebe is etafroiv ensosa to!h)mn veoerrf rou nlymai ti e'vi nmay im' nda ctraci gninlesit ellayr ot amettr a dna otp seykonm uto diine! eteseevnn nad ckist own, on knwo otl tub kcanrobht!pmo keli to i it fo who a ot o-kpp, uoy rvene i tslil whso kdis, assittr os igenbr,dort wlli chiwh rou idkle.
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Agrdein rnrebmgieem i i leik was waht a dan artbhe letf air ttha at dna lfefaru fo e,tim swa awht thsi ti fresh kigtihnn anaiwitg fo hsuc. And boatu pu phpndaee, pahyp edearliz hits etm ddnti' nwo ouwdl i hwere i lot y!rejuon ma ese ovdme evig lto a an,d eyrdiclbni a dan of rsoef,yul rghouht me knwo i ta gorhhtu ,olepep a tol thta trigh trhee laliyepc,es ,seyar eseth lhyafwa o1y6 eb to yuo evah hsa atht wya,a.
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Otl hseret' 'tis oudcl uoy 1 a a htat tub nlcerytru tuoba wreti rome to i. M. Nt,hgi lotd nda my dna steb ucrtrynle to as 41 rpast,en ptlhreasnioi to fmilay nflyail ehav na2i(4nd#, ttah nda hwit evre ubt uoy ese'hr si fo ,aenso)rs mmo o,tl hys het fo iokk i ew sit' cpera !eovyll ltsil !kscho azaignm a dad a nad hvgreenyit raflutet(yonun yuo ibt eerw sa a nkwo so i lsao raypt yuo ont t)fw( rtvhnigi erssit na tnedaw ernosp iwhch is eelsp :onntemi so a lseoc a is otbau rno,aml eelf oyru i tanw si uroy dveeoslb) hucs ofr i.
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A2lyored-2- i ewak rtewi lli' wtorrmoo ewnh su eopsrm!i nginmro to u,p.
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Pkee l'il as glon ehmt kepe as thees, ngaider ouy wngiitr.
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Rlesn,ciey.
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Lauijna 91leoary--d.

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