A letter from February 23rd, 2021

Dear FutureMe, hi there, as im writing this its not actually that far in the past. your birthday is in just over 2 weeks. you're 16 now. i know, i should stop pulling the whole 'prophetic' ******** but its interesting, there aren't many other ways to speak to your future self in such a direct way. as of now: - 1630 on twitch :)) - the past week ive averaged 64 viewers, and averaged 73 last night :D - although ive been in the recommended a lot recently, i want to start putting more effort into tiktok again to supplement it and keep things going if i end up out of the recommended (which i hope doesn't happen) - im abt half an hour away from starting my maths online class we go back to school two weeks on monday, 8th march. i really don't want to. not even just for me but because i think we should wait till at least after the easter holidays/sometime in april. we're gonna have to be tested multiple times a week and wear a mask at all time, precautions i understand but it does make you wonder whether its safe in the first place. but of course you already know this as, when u receive this, you will have been back for a whole week already. i hope it wasn't too bad. camhs obviously still hasn't happened so my mum has suggested going private for sessions. to be fair, i don't think camhs was ever supposed to be therapy in the first place, just an assessment/diagnosis (which i am still after). i have noticed my ocd picking up again recently, like it did in the summer of last year. luckily i haven't reset the app in a long time tho. still into tom scott? still got your regulars? how is streaming now in-person school is back? i hope everything is okay. to be fair, going back at this point, while i still think its too early, is better than going back in the winter.