A letter from February 4th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I have a dream - today you break up with your man Justin , the experience was amazing - captivating, intense, romantic and loving. Timing is off, he talked about going back and forth to Texas, but said he is unavailable for commitment and love. Non committal he said, you are not priority. He is attached to his ex, he loves you = but is he unable to-love fully right now. You want to hold on, but you committed to yourself to let go and see what happens. You want him to come back and say he can not live without you...but is it really him you want or just the one person. You know the person, the one who say you are mine, I want you, desire you... and you he....my person. So let him go, would be so nice if he was the one one day - but it's not really about him, it's about finding the person. You are 43 today, never married, you don't even believe you are worth it or it's possible for you - Today you make a promise, to let go of that which does not move you to your path of desire to be in partnership, meaning be okay with the loss of your current love. One needs more than love, they need the desire to be there - to show up. So now you know... Ihave an intention, to have a promise 8/30/77. You will be 45. You life is amazing, now you want to share it with another - You made it his far with your sunny san diego beachy perfect, creative, meditative lovely life. You have health and beauty and youth. Earning potential, drive and ambition - you feel deeply and you make shit happen - you are a manifester! you created a life of love and full of time for you and your children, living your best life ever - now you want to share it with another who lives fully, rich, present and honestly = one who has done the work, one who is open and aware. One who say it is you I choose to walk this path with. He / She will want me - I am to be priority. I will not lose omy autonomy - and will feel free in the connection, yet secure and connected. HE or she will be close in proximity = time away will not be an issue but there will be so much time in arms, in words - looking into eye, being - Sex is a must- great sex. Communication, validation and words of love - along with time spent, Must wake up with one another often. He or She will be kind, compassionate, unentangled - free space, intentional about finding his partner, Tantric, chemistry will be through the roof. Timing will be right. His/ her words and actions will be one of integrity, He will love the feminine and he will love he divine. he will be accepting and connected, mindful loyal and true - he or she will be money motivated and abundant - but also respect time - he or she will live big! dream big- be stable secure, reassuring and physically loving and generous with his words and emotions. He will have a desire to be seen, and have desire but allowance to let go and be shown, co-create and direct. I will be calm with him and I will have healed so much - it will be instant knowing, True love - but slow to move the getting to know - I will centered, stable and patient - but the process need not happen slowly and it can happen at any time, but it will happen before my 45th birthday - the promise is coming. I feel lucky to be letting go of love and being loved with my current one but who can not give me what I want now - Now I ask Universe for partnership and clear space for me and me for him or her....THEY will come / a promise to be made by my 45th birthday - I set this intention of a soul connection to be found and lived. YOU WILL HAVE THAT FEELING! Bonus/ Spiritual, existential, holistic, $$$, workout, lift, eat - the same - I desire a partner who meditates with me. talk, talk talk, work things out - resolve, fight (with mind) and love. available in every aspect of the word, AVAILABLE- Loving, living, Big Risk taker -Physically attractive to me, SMELLS like I need them, My love is food and smell..... You are out there, no?? Feed my desire- I am hungry, now help me to release my attachment to it knowing it is coming! LET GO! IT WILL MOVE YOU _ now be okay if if never comes! yikes, there in lie the magic. I put it out there - let go now lets' see what happens. ADDING - I forgot to to say, MUST be FUNNY, my kinds of funny - we are funny together and have inside jokes - Can laugh at us, himself and life in general. - MUST HAVE AJ