A letter from January 5th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, It’s 2021. Congrats. You survived 2020. Pandemic is still going. It’s honestly at its worst, but you’re still isolating and staying safe. LA is a full blown epicenter. 1/5 people have it. The vaccine is being rolled out, slowly. You’re still wearing your blanket hoodie thing. You’re outside on the hammock with you peppermint mocha (laird’s). Under the tree where Harriett the hummingbird lives. Advanced magick for beginners is in your lap. Finally getting around to reading it (hopefully). Maybe it’s okay to only want to read and clean and be productive in the beginning of the year. Maybe December’s are for hibernation. January is for preparation. Springtime is for creation. Fall is for sharing those creations with the world and then back to resting in the winter. I’d like for my body and mind to follow that natural cycle. Constant productivity leaves no room for inspiration and new ideas. I feel like I want to be single this year. Like not fully committed to someone. Just committed to myself and letting others bask in my sunlight here and there. I don’t like seeking approval in others anymore. It’s so draining. I gotta find that approval within me. I’m already whole. I will focus on attracting and not chasing. People come into my life for a reason from here on out. I can learn something from everyone I meet, but it is no longer my job to over give and over share. It’s my turn to receive. I deserve that. I do. And maybe that means receiving from myself. So that the gifts I receive from others are just that: gifts. It’s not healthy for me to rely on others for my happiness/approval. There is a whole world within me to explore. My thoughts and ideas exist for a reason. I am full and whole and smart and talented and creative. Time to expand on that. I won’t diminish my own talents anymore. I will attract others who see my light and want to help it grow and glow. Jupiter and Saturn aligning was to bring a whole era of success to me and my air signs. How’s that going so far? Congrats on your album, by the way. Amazing work. Love you -sabriel