A letter from January 4th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hey, are you guys still in love or did you lose him? if you lost him, how are you holding up wth it? are YOU still in love with him? when you call does he answer or ignore it? does he think about her more than you? does he go out and miss you? does he like making you hurt? does he hate you like you want to hate him but you can't because you are still in love with him but he doesn't know and probably won't care? does he have a new girl and not even think about you before he goes to sleep? it'll be alright beautiful. you'll find someone who loves you and will never leave you. you guys will get married and live the happiest life. if he cheats, leave him. you don't deserve to be cheated on. you are so beautiful and deserve so much more than what you've gone through for that boy. if you put in your everything and he only gives you what's on the surface, he doesn't deserve you. he ruined you. don't let that happen again like it did with Brayden Allen. Brayden ruined your life. made you cry for over a year everyday. made you go into a deep depression that only your cousins understood. does he still ask what you are doing? does he still ask to ft when he knows your parents wont let you? does he love her? has he completely forgotten you and everything you've done for him? i remember everything you said to him. does he try to help you when you tell him that you are really hurting and you don't know why? have you thought to yourself, "do i really deserve him?" you can't stand the thought of losing him but that isn't what matters? what matters is that if he leaves you, does he regret everything he has done to you? or does he want someone new to get over you because he knows that you did everything for him. you kept it from your parents because you didn't want them to make you break up with him, you know that he will never find someone that treated him the way you did. did he love you?