A letter from October 28th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Hi, so it's 2021, wow. How did you celebrate this year? Have you visited your brother recently and did he try and get you to talk to your dad again? When you wrote this, you weren't feeling the best and you were going through a hard time with your mum. Seeing her cry made you upset, I hope you guys have moved away from the abusive people by now, you both deserve so much better. Have you come out as bi to your family yet? If not, that's okay, you're valid and worthy of love, no matter what trolls on the internet say. You've changed schools so many times, I hope that you like the one that you're in now. Have you adopted a dog yet, if you have, what's their name? . Which songs have you learnt on the piano recently? I know that you wanted to learn Lonely by Noah Cyrus. I hope that you got to see Matt and spend some time with him. I know people took advantage of your good heart last year, but you should never stop being a kind person, no matter how many people use you, if you haven't already you will find the right people, just wait. I wonder if we've found the book yet 'The truth about Celia Frost', you've been looking for it for ages. I know that we've always been quite shy and reserved, but this year, you could try and maake some new friends, you can do it, I know you can. I genuinely hope that you and your mum are happy despite everything that went on. I know you used unhealthy habits to cope with your depression, but maybe you've opened up to people and found healthier ways. I understand that last year was tough and you had a hard time loving yourself, but just know this, I love you so much and you do matter. You're beautiful, no matter what anyone says . I really hoped you enjoyed today LB and remember to not take things too seriously and have fun being a teenager. Love, Yourself

Epilogue

over 1 year later

Hi,
you celebrated with your mum in the garden, there were fireworks and they were beautiful. Your brother has visited recently, but it took months to get to see him...

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