A letter from October 23rd, 2020

Dear Future Me, I hope you're doing well!! you're probably 14-15ish when you receive this letter... I'm so proud of you, I love you, I really do, and whatever you do you will still be the little girl mom created so please don't feel sad if you've had any fights with mom or dad.. (if they still happen to be around, and if they aren't... I'm so sorry... you're so strong for staying alive this long.) Please know that your 11-year-old self loves you with all my heart and wishes for you to achieve your dreams, become a doctor, teacher, or maybe the job you've always wanted since you were five, which was a veterinarian of course haha! I know you have changed, changed ALOT since I wrote this letter... YOU'RE GROWING!! look at you... I'm so proud :) please don't give up on yourself. not yet. not today. not tomorrow. not Monday. not next week. NEVER. Because all these years 14-15 years, do you really want them to go to waste!? of course not. your 11-year-old self will be PISSED if you ended your life before getting a **** house. aww, no harsh feelings! the point is that I'm SUPER proud of you and yes, yes, yes... you probably been through some ****** embarrassing days BUT GUESS WHAT! you're here baby, you're here! you're here, reading this and probably tearing up because of how tough life has been these couple of days, AND HEY!! it's more than okay to cry, in fact, right now I'm also tearing up a little- but it's okay let it all out, scream if you can because guess what? in the end, you're gonna look back and be grateful you didn't end your life... another thing PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE don't drop out of school you know you want to have that dream life right? the one where you don't have to worry if you're gonna be broke the next day, the one where you can buy everything you wish for, the one where you have a pretty room, the one where your house has 4-6 bathrooms, the one where there are 3-6 rooms, the one where you live happily and not stressed because of money. Hey, just know that everything is gonna be fine, I love you... please don't forget that at the end of the day you still have that little happy kid in you, because you're Katelyn, Katelyn Ventura you have a purpose. NEVER let anybody tell you otherwise okay? the only opinion(s) that matter is yours. you get to decide how you live. you get to decide what you want to do, how to dress, talk, swim, and even walk. So, **** them. simply... **** them. kids making fun of you at school? don't let them toy around with you. YOU ARE A HUMAN BEING. EVERYONE IS HUMAN. even the drunk person in the street, the drug addict, *********, kidnappers, etc. THEY ARE ALL HUMANS and so are you so, please... please... take care of yourself I don't want you to get hurt. Now, I know you are "grown" or whatever but keep in mind you're still a little kid; a baby, a minor. So, please respect your body and others, don't let others take advantage of you IN ANY SORT OF WAY. If you happen to have a boyfriend or girlfriend that's completely fine! just please respect them and of course, don't let them hurt you whether if it's physically or emotionally- it is not okay and you should leave them if they don't make you feel right because partners should both have respect for each other no matter what, and they should make each other feel loved; not hurt or useless, hopeless or insecure (please don't ever cheat on them, if they cheat with you just leave them.) and remember men ain't ****, so don't be stressed if one of them makes you feel "ugly" because you know **** well you are adorable! well, this concludes my letter to you... but before you go I have some questions for you! 1.) is the coronavirus pandemic still going on? 2.) is the president respectful?(not homophobic, respects women, not racist, actually intelligent?) 3.) have you gotten better in math, science, or history? 4.) is mom still hella strict and lowkey homophobic? 5.) is Krissy (our black cat) still around...? (and if she isn't... I hope she lived her best life.) 6.) is Marianna from discord still your friend? 7.) have you lost weight? 8.) how's *******? LOL 9.) how many classes are u failing- LMAOAOAO 10.) do you still have the same pink girly room- 11.) IS THE PURPLE PILLOW STILL AROUND????? sobs 12.) is that huge teddy bear that is probably super limp by now around? 13.) how are ur mood swings doing- 14.) do you still have a tiny bit of anger issues? 15.) do you still have discord? 16.) is TikTok still a thing 17.) what are yall's humor nowadays? (ours is "LMAOAAOOA BYE IM ORBITING" and "GOODBYE IM DONE" and "PLEASEEE IM HONKING" and don't forget the "ushy gushy my puthy" comments) 18.) do we still live in the same house? 19.) How's baby brother and evelyn and baldemar doing? 20.) did they change tiktoks name? 21.) do you still watch anime 22.) are u still trying to shift into that hxh universe- PLEASEEEBHSN 23.) What's the most embarrassing thing that has happened? 24.) are u still a kurapika kinnie and simp and literally obsessed with him? 25.) did mom let u dress like u actually want to dress or nah 26.) have you dyed your hair? 27.)do you have any new pets? 28.) are you still scared of lizards? 29.) whats your favorite song? (mine is little dark age but im guessing yall have different type of music now) 30.) are "alts" still a thing? Aw, well I see, it has finally reached its end of this letter... we probably wont meet again of course but I hope you're happy and successful! i love you a lot make sure to eat and drink water, have a good day afternoon or night!! goodbye now ill miss you. -katelyn ventura 11:00 PM, 10/23/2020 (11 years old)