A letter from September 7th, 2020

Dear Future me. Hi Michelle. At the moment things aren't going very well. We're in the same year mom got properly born again. I'm getting a little affected by that in negative ways. She's turned all her focus on God, which is great of course, but I really miss our old relationship. I'm also having trouble being happy these days. I find myself crying more often than what's considered normal. That might be because of Princess, father, mom and God. I find myself very confused about it all, and also find myself having suicidal thoughts at night. All I'm hoping is that everything is better by now, and that you're truly happy. Now this was a very sad and heavy start, so let's move over to some fun stuff. By now you should have that glow up I've been expecting. I'm too lazy to work out, but you shouldn't be (after all you are the older one). Please I beg of you that you're still focused on school and that you're focusing on your studies. What I'm up to: So I'm trying to get my mc license and so far it's just fun. I'm going to a traffic school getting my "trafikalt grunnkurs". Maia can still not talk and I'm trying to help. Aleksander is having trouble reading and I hope he's better at school. Kevin and I are watching anime, and I'm teaching myself japanese. MICHELLE!!! You better know japanese now! PLEASE please please! tell me you didn't give up! OMG I'd be so mad at you. If you did you go back at it and start again! If you actually did give up I've just gotta say...: I'm so disappointed over you. Why do you always give up? You never stick to anything and no one believes in you. That's the reason no one thinks you can pursue your dreams of becoming a surgeon. If you actually gave up on that you are a loser. There is no good explanation for why'd you give up, just challenges. Now, this is all I feel future Michelle should know. (Encase you don't know, God loves you) OK, さようなら!