A letter from July 30th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, How you doin!? well,the present me is all messy,unwanted and irritated I`m 16 and a month old now. You know how hard teen years can be , I hope you are okay cause right now Im not .Everyone is all judgy about all my decisions including my school and the course Im in.they made me doubt myself just cause i took commerce.ah!screw them. My friends too arent even trying to help me cope up with my lonliness.They are adding to the misery.My whole life is now a big WTF? Anyway if you are reading this STAY STRONG LOVE. Do not give up easily cause that is what I often do and I regret it a lot. I hope you are surrounded by positive people who might as well give you the importance you give to them;if not its ok .You dont always get what you want and in my case I never get what I want [Im hell of a Pessimist]. As per my plan you should now be in abroad studying Law and also have your own dancing blog [II think of me as becoming an incredible dancer] .I hope you are on the right path. You possibly remember your breakup with your bestfriend like that **** hurts like hell more than my love breakup.well I think about her every now and then.I know Im stupid.who`s your BFF now? lemme take a guess.A boy who wears glass and is the most handsome around.Hope Im right.[these are defo not my preferences ,its a wild guess I promise.] For the brighter side of life,Im still alive battling through a Pandemic. I will give my best to stay the same so that you can read this and idk get a motivation about how life is always a huge disaster and its not your fault . Let me give you some advice.Stay away from stupidity.Friends arent always there for you[sooner you realize the better ].Also not everyone you think is your friend.Dont let people take you for granted.LOVE YOURSELF.Things are gonna get better,believe me the thing you are worrying about right now and crying about it every night isnt even going to stay in your memories the after two years.You might even laugh about how silly you were.Time heals everything,EVERYTHING.Focus on your skin health ,Dont make me look older than I actually am.Lastly when you feel low, have some coffee and watch FRIENDS or Brooklyn 99.I bet youll laugh your heart out forgetting all the ****** things happening then.When nothing goes well in life,take a nap. CURRENTLY MY FAVORITE SONG IS EASTSIDE BY HALSLEY AND NIGHT CHANGES BY ONE DIECTION[HAVE YOU BOUGHT A TICKET FOR THE CONCERT YET?] Hope mom is happy and in great health.Keep her happy ,she is really counting on you.Dont let her down.Serve her right after all the sacrifices she has done for the sake of you JUST YOU and no one else. LOADS OF LOVE ,STAY SAFE AND STRONG.THE WAIT IS WORTH IT. LOVINGLY YOURS LAKSHMI

Epilogue

almost 3 years later

hii my very pessimistic self Lakshmi Aradhana

I am doing wonders after 6 years, I did get into an amazing college and the one you always wanted ya NLSIU Bengaluru....

Hdgaecn be ot sdeamu to boaut eilf da gerhenivty instel sodienci ad alelry noe atht lla ym iosrets 'uolly. Veah dna hirgt tigrh aehv ecalp ni het i rvey nebe risndef mite danuor shoemwo nmagzai eolppe iesw em i i was nad kucyl. Itngh nda iklgant oth ti amalvaki oewhl a to i heca heotr asw odstppe. No i fiel ltlsi uyo asdi tayngsi oesg tonrsg am lkie. A i uecas poidre i hinpternis gp anhncei to fo ormf dan rgwiint dourna ayds yrve owt am uoy dsya ni igrfela kepidps be. Ihts setr nad htaw aet me od dgo kaet colaechto nwast is ot. Act ot mih vdloe so hucm, oyu ish dah i two shwiserk ho for yreas owdn lats a. Him illts em i mhu,c phoe i eh msis ndfis os inaga. It we ew abkc ti ufn isetsr evol nad tduonl'w wiht os bte ryrche lla iyamlf fatc lkei satf but atseh nda nyatsig ad mhcu heter ayw i aisbm emhrot tgt?ih rea ehr fo so omtreh daheppne iaang hnte dsei het ehtm on own reew stih os. We hastt tem dsgo ielsk rrcyhe ceusa ibasm owh dan obrtreh. Tgera two sseapd wyaa ebne bsima tmonsh hnta's ago. Uinsht onagn is ttreyp lhsglity hist dperateo og uckqi wen upp etem eh i im' and 'hlel earl bncueo akcb a call so ijnerud my afetr sheintripn is he'ters he yba,b ipdtus oh hmi ihm ogt eh so fun. Eatawyak lkei ouy you ofmr rof piudst gnitehvery ese ubt to i mweno lfie emn ,egos ssegu eth ad aevh lal ilke harst, hwere evli on rfo ear wrok hist ondrau ylno enm eht cotxenpie i otu, elif, seod avhe fryeoslu, rea 'rsteeh. Kile bste **** eireht ohw aoyk esagsl?s tiwh wtna wanesr era aegrt eitnquso to my ehrit eirthapst hvae to i lal ro guy eb owenm so mi uory si you neirdsf onn i,maonponsc ng nfreid mfa elma. I rae *** od namlro veah ealm nad who rnfdeis. Tmtinrrueec ofr os seru usrnt oruy rtse'he netx 'lil at ltil' tmhon, ot iaang lli' tretle wnok kool ti ese adn xeteicd owh soal tou ou,t wkor nda adcers im. I ralerg snatnyitl vahe kloo lpeyfouhl nto up rgeac hte ectpiur teh to at and egvi. Rfo rma by i no a i oenuirn getluu tshi oervaitf ad ttoh my sngo v uyb ni afm sogn lyapbbor is nr nad 0202 ew coetnrc a 1d mbrr i fnu ahve og ddi da to woh tub illw on dan rtcnceo luowd kteitc aehatdalnk isr not. And nypea dide just ear ethre liam fo won ish othle hte 4 (:( ycolbna fof 'ddeo ehmt. A sola oarnsse ggii caeunseyrsn ikel hdaes twah gselur)tg dah gointrwh i btu htats liek a laleyr uyor s?e?styl ekesp so pikc ami ahrry h?ist?? hhiwc irfa own at ffo esh' bekor am,n uyo a ekldi you dha( is utrdehag w yazn fhtrae atth rneve. A esytls all deaeeslr with sski hrray i e'sh shi pherca tisco lumab ismcu e,rreca adn acioalclsyno wne i,mte tegton ovel ad roem ioscd ***-re stlil eytneclr gkin. Aehv eenb edavhia ihabrs i sgiksin ufn lot a. Het tslil snihgt ta dan mi ym do mitcnroa ad do i hyw nwat srsuupti in otu hent uhg ielk i teshe rea to ometnm eltatas esfcf,io wkro sgtbegi job i inurggfi do ton ewrsoir my not. Ongikol fo nciygr wnko ouy **** hwrot atpr vacrse htgir od about nem eiopnngrd ublvalaeani hatw im and ot em ti i ta tno its litls ouy eihadav btu ton. Romteh tmie such no nreves tub si si tseg lal life my the ,nfei. Eby aky. Vhea lyk slalh dna nfu i.

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