A letter from July 20th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Tonight is two weeks since one of the worst days of this year. It's when I found out about him cheating and everything else. Currently I feel like I'm moving past being numb and shocked but realising its reality now and I've realised I can't fix everything. We're in the middle of a pandemic, work is so hard to face into and I'm taking it day by day. There's a weight off my shoulders I didn't realise I needed gone. The worst part is I never got a true apology or remorse. I kissed a boy on Saturday and cried all day Sunday because everything became real. I'm not sure will I ever get the explanation and apology I deserve but I hope you have moved on and you are happy. I hope you have had a chance to discover yourself and become independent. I hope you don't depend on people as much as you used to and I hope your friends are good to you. Remember this girl as the one who was put through everything and more and she still kept her head held high. You deserve everything and don't forget it. Do you still cry when you hear the night we met? Do you still love tongue tied? Don't forget how much you've made it through and how STRONG you are. I hope you're off anti depressants for good and that you're thriving. If you're not, that's Okay but this is your kick in the ***. You deserve the world. Lots of love, Laura Tuesday 21/7/2020

Epilogue

over 1 year later

Hello old me,

It’s 2022 now, nearly 2023. I laughed at this letter, so much has happened but I’m still the same person, just with...

Wiev a efli of rifedefnt.
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You mreo rgteeoth dan twen enev toughhr taabrehkre bakc tog. Up nda hse’ own efdrirnigl entod’s ottgne nito se’hs nkwo rkobe you otg ahtw ohw a. .
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Ttamept yuo na yda regtre ivrsvedu yuo to itsh atht. Uryo fireedtnf tlsli era rfednsi tlo calipse own, eson fo a shoet you eahv btu.
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Bojs gto oyu hstoe tdnawe ouy. Uaevl your lrofueys ovcie nad ouy. Uroy and oury ctpaec hsnresgtt vealu oyu ensekwesas.
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Ou’yre is aenwdt telitgn uvey’o lgrtgnsgui mhi vryeigenht hda leladrvet mna in htwi a ahhltoug owh laylre ot you, ese. A diogn odog ojb hes’ rginty dna. Ofr htme, it uiaendosbr tahw oryu lyol’u a btu myeba og atrtem on eu’oyr evha ot won iveg how epek nda irgnenal.
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Cmuh tndi’d vene cyr tub ta bcka os we ouldnct’ aeyr, idd era eon etwir shti htta ouy rehe atsl uoy ekil etterl uyo.
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Tish temi you mghit elif naoethr hnaeotr ynroutc xnte yaer ithw ni evil. Valtre tvaerl ayers ear hpeo fwe hte so i rtalev yuo iengtixc txen adn. .
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Hte ouy, rdupo so i’m apth on uyeo’r of gthir.
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Ees you etnx eray. .
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