A letter from July 4th, 2020

Hi there! This is another 2:38 AM ph thoughts that you're too lazy to write on your journal. I hope you would look back to this and not cringe. I just want to say that by the same time this day, you're still holding on and moving forward. Things has been rough but we'll het through it. I know you're doing fine too. I know you're still alive because you don't give up that easily. Remember our will to live, "doing and hoping for the best so you wouldn't regret anything in case you've made up your mind about ending it". I'm currently tired but I hope that you wouldn't in the future. If no one acknowledges your effort, achibements, and sacrifices, then acknowledge it yourself. No one can decide your happiness except you. Please start choosing yourself. Post those pictures of yours that presents how happy you are and not just the things you love. Be confident and love yourself. No one would do it for you except you. You've been thriving for validation for years. It sucks getting rejected by everyone so stop rejecting yourself, please. I want to move on and I know you do too. Reflect on the past but stop carrying it all the time. Acknowledge your traumas, your feelings, and your success. Be proud of yourself once in a while, don't be guilty because you feel happy. It's fine if you care less about what other people think. If they know you and accept you, they'll guide you to the right path and support you no matter what. You have kat, jane, varie, pat, cia, and so much more. They're not always judging you like what you fear. Trust them, please. It's alright to depend on someone from time to time. You don't have to carry the world. Just be you. ^_^