A letter from June 7th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Hey! Happy Birthday!!!!!!! I'm probably the only one sending you a message. The sad part is that I am planning it too, but hopefully years from now you'll be happier. It's you from June 7, 2020. I hope there's a future from now until then. There's been a lot going on in the world. People are protesting for the Black Lives Matter movement. I hope by then there's a change. I know times will become challenging, and hopefully it'll have been worth it and happen. I can't stand how the police are treating citizens. We are supposed to be free, but now there silencing us and we're not okay with that. Haha Donald Trump credit card got leaked, I found it funny. I hope no one gets in trouble for using it. Well, right now our situation is complicated. Moms out of rehab at least. Then we got that court call on the 10th. I am worried for it, but it'll be okay, I hope. Aunty Lin has the virus, I hope she'll be okay. She means a lot to me, despite everything that happened. Okay enough of this. How's life?? We're about to graduate!!! We finished freshman year! For me, I'll be starting sophomore year. Well Us actually. I hope you did okay, it's okay if you didn't place that high though. As of right now, I don't know what to expect. To be honest, I never thought we'd make it past 13, 15, 16, and now I am trying to imagine 18-19. I honestly hope we've changed, I don't want to have a negative mind and wonder when I am going to die. I know that I am going to figure it out though. I hope you're fine. Have we dated anyone? To be honest, I think I like girls more then guys, but still like guys ya know. I don't want to question anything because 16 is still a young age to me. I hope we didn't experience a heart break or anything because I don't think I could handle that if I am to be honest. I just want to be happy, and not stressed or anything. I hope you're okay. Please don't self harm anymore, we got this. I wonder how you look like now. Have you dyed your hair? Lost weight? No pressure though. Gosh, I can't believe we're an adult basically. Are we still into anime???? Like for real, we've been watching it since 2015 (4th grade) like it's crazy. My all time favorite anime is still Assassination Classroom. Also Kaji Balance Unlimited was becoming my favorite but paused due to the virus. I want to go to a con and experience that energy and be all hyped. Gah I wonder what school we're at?? Kayenta, Phoenix, or window rock?? I hope it's Kayenta. If not then somewhere in phoenix then. I hope we still do track and field. I wonder what it's like. Do we still have to wear masks? And stay 6 Feet Apart?? crazy. Also are we still into alternative rock?? I am listening to My Chemical Romance right now. Well sad songs to be honest. I don't know what else to say. Happy birthday, we made it! Stay alive and be more friendly. Don't let anything get to you. I love you, a lot. Bye Kiera. Happy Birthday, don't let anything get to you!

Epilogue

about 2 months later

I still can’t believe I wrote this during quarantine and a lot has changed. I’ve been putting this off for months because it’s kinda depressing seeing what I wrote about...

Dna het lal utasiinot fo ti. .
.
Wne tetram nda a dide shgnit ti nwod kaem ethn did akcbl tub gnceah eppole no emdov ofr weilah ihtw vlsei. Ewre i nad listl it eebn on swhi pneapsh uboat olt feocsud a lltis nda ayerll hwat tub ’tsi leoppe pepeanhd. Neuconti ni eamk a otn loagn peoh hcngae live ti oldrw het arlley mkea rtsoeh nda rivopem onshigmet nad or ot slnei i ”“ndytre llwi oehst ew.
.
Tenw pats ew the ubt rsyae nleiirvg it tsnihg ’vdewluo ogt tiknh fifylde,netr o’dyu n,giaa efrta deden tusj rsweo a up ewf ’im ianga ttah yrsor. Ednovvli a tw’ans csp hda hkfln,ytual ew imonr shit and tmie no so sorpupt gnlroe. Ahtt lsilp drupsrise and utb iivaol tuoba got cabk rueo’y ugrds not nokw oitn i. ’sesh ’eshs adn bnee or se’sh boj notd’ ni kwon erh sllit ilja os rof jali ni fi slot waelhi heous at eherw i adn. Wthi tbu for bayem eth ctu drressuip we seit rpat️❣ nto reh tsom itpapdoisedn. Kekicd pu draeeg ew to ltamuuly drnefsi slao a teggnti nad leaev but ta elpca ytsagin tou dende. Nikolo wtsna’ im’ ubt teh ehenapdp so sith dpuor rfo g!!atredau ouy ew roiauangtd dan of idd wilahe oeecmvro tihs su ddi refobe tseb ew wath it ddi nda ️it❣ lla to. Lleb iadp luoeysfr tub you rtehe adn oy,u i💕t yam athp idd thigaynn ew form eneb ta ot ew eht we reodkw ctoa sllti of lvaoii no rpopsut eerf rowdke rouy nwok ass uabsece ujts glyelal raey hraepip eb esmurm nad trfsi iongg rujion rwok adn rfo olstam the ew two utb yifmla ffo suff‼️t erwe’ gloenr rof seayr os on to shleomes be lmssreoeth wo‼n️ tihgr tcixo.
.
19 onw ti adn tllsi ’wree i na’ct eeelbiv. Aridtbhy we on ew tub ayywna t9h1 etbrlaedec envre uor ’ist dan yk,ao 18th ti dwkero. Ptso sh/ yirgnt ot but ’mi htne beertt oebfre rraley ihhcw nwo enshapp is it. Cliidaus ’tnod as i ihtree wno or peseeddsr eelf. Ew rlmano oru tlisl but yasd ffo ’ist hvea. Ofr shti we us rogunye utb imeangi wno rae vslsee tnteggi next fo nguntir i wtia ordpu oru ❣raf️ erya tanc’ ruse 3< 02 mi’ ofr htta.
.
Lerpup e,ar) mess oru rbi !i!t dna yed dseihrd bt(es tychap odne dxife & !!iarh idd and ifsrt aidkn rou tub aws hwti the tttampe santdsr l,ueb npki we wv’ee epru,pl a feidrn pperlu ikp,n oht ti os. Eben rulyc desen nda i tbu it aertptn ti slocro reom lahbce mchu tyr so a rhai tub kb‼ea️r hwotr eyrall esdesm our ahri tsi’ up awnan tman oot ruo. Orf gaina gliinv rlooc hte htowr dema laelry elif. I ubt ew mvoe wietgh enco ot tn’hvae na lsot npla lsoa ew ti no netatpmar. Mda oto e’wve wkonri ctao ta blel ghtiwe ont erev but nidaeg ’im cesin. Eamyntll e’rew lal rvee cwihh gdino eve’w edwtna tebter si. Wtia hegwti ’natc.
.
To wno irupgsinsr dt’on umch ineam si whihc ays hacwt as ew. Ylrael btu it inhgt nteretni eth oudlw at i or cei,srve edspotp no wtih wde’ hemo idd us rllyea nikth. Sneaso cnabael sllti gdoo dna os ubt t’is a slitl is tfearvoi haev wen slamsoocr ahd detmiinlu u️slh‼p i a noasaassstnii ym tn’has ornseoeski. Oru flie nows phsae ew got acbk also it iyrbk inot ruo dan.
.
Adn wef wetn lwel !r!eaki eidlk soeeomn it rainlcuy and emabec ta o,yenna vebeeli ksi)l?e( !k!cba htwi but to and su we os ledik ndowt’ul i!rstf adn we dccekli orem ew rth’ees you te’vnah lytur dadte arpets!rn a teme eth <3 dha ialnylf osrnei adn i‼lek️ labrmmeoe eh eh dame miste imh sinreo yera irogdna raye we ew ujts iomvse we raey tealkd hte onmesoe is. Wsa wgitirn ruo o,ot mseu eropty rwtoh mdea niaag eh. But smane htne s’he :( su by norugey mchu oainsd sih tno. I tou go su i imh i ofr on 81 hgmti hte 19 su ubt mi’ i’m tuoba eb ti work ghhah he’s wtih tath aesecub otn t,hneso oulrces to udcol enwbeet tbu noetnct and :( tgo enddee. Snfdceseo ti wef ndioatrgua otnmh nda odcufes ti n’awts yoru a esekw os lyifma ofr evlo he ta hte ddtrfei eelrtt tarpa tub a thiw inam semoplbr swa’tn htat eevn umaseds ast’nw ew hnpegil os or ro nda oefebr i a pctarecdoier a!!ws. Ue’dvlco cadsre pzaigodoel inogg diknceceh t,uo esakd armincto kssi to os twees all you os cute lehow evew’ asw oubta dna adn u!s lkedi nda nad eh imte nvee time ti for utghtoh btu got i tehn ofr trosy e!mit uyo ubt he kacb dna sghnuri it teh eefrob retid loehw teh r,otsh i cnotairm h’se onde us nolg sihgnt shit. Teh ’esh tsbe lurty penhpa hgint ot wedish dan su we i to dculvo’e deadt. Adis whit ubt pasln he a gimnvo we rtednffie evah for ’mi akyo dna cnchae ’ethres ahtt hotb. Si’t dna is prctaeapei ew eypt teuc eenv whta hsdna lylrea ’eewv ichwh dna hte nda i thoghu mih of dwaent tnncoien rocnmae so lhod.
.
So gmaazni dehows we ’ndto eddsser omfr and ti asihcrnti up tyakea,n saw !to!o dan ltaliintaoydr dad aagredudt ew wrro❣y️. Nmviog isdrfne we !no too sism tub ew’re rou lal.
.
Oot ti sltil eiqrudre utb ot stuj ot eraw tsi’ ksasm ew renmyao own seu ohghut rou nto anorlm and awre it esefl noe onw! ettogn. To we kaa hep’ses ivbelee feet do ’tcan aartp 6 ahha tath rmoe hatt adh rtlyu on 2 tarap. .
.
Nbee ncat ugthh!o hda ot we ltnuodc crectnso i nunerio go lieeevb veol we tllsi e’wev fo a mrc tlo a !i!t tbu lilts thye nda but.
’evwe snee:.
Eoth-yrtlcrreaet.
Iaivol oorgdir -.
Cuoc -.
R!ar!mpao!e -.
Caswer-rl.
O-idnimc fkei.
Paooll roam-.
Shuci k-ial.
Eon entwyt- toipls.
Hmreertm-htoo.
Re-etp clopdmna.
Rbdavuan-.
.
Etnx coretnc ienealm xes teh iel!v! ruo eeipcr is etgtiaercs tearf vt lr!ig dna mnztai!r!e rof.
.
Cna’t ot a obtau tfufs !uuetrf filnayl vlei! ni far ee’vw het irtew ew hfpeoluly dan rome agld i er’ew k,eira wtenad ti im’ ueinncot thsi ertbet ot tiwa rpixnenegeci aedm ielf nda llwi gnodi.

This user has written an update to this letter.To see what they wrote, please

Press ← and → on your keyboard to move between letters

Write new comment

Load more comments