A letter from May 24th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, hey girl,, Its a year old you these days we are stuck in quarantine since march 16. I'm sick and tired of stayin inside 24/7. I miss playing soccer so much and i miss seeing my friends at school, but since this is a year from now maybe you'll be back in school as a sophomore. Right now you're a nicotine addict and you drink and get high, I really hope you changed those habits so we can be more successful and healthy in the future, we had a very promising soccer career if we hadn't started those right? haha, funny how influences changes someone. Are you still friends with Marin? She use to be my whole other half but things change and ik dat.Im bi but i'm doubting my sexuality that i might be a lesbian pero i don't wanna disappoint my family. I have a somewhat good relationship with my mom but my dad is a whole nother story, I barely even talk to him maybe he changes in the future and decides to step up. I'm also not over your first love,, maybe i'll never be because that's a first love right? someone you'll never forget but maybe you got over him and stopped crying. I really really really hope you found someone to love again and that loves you back equally. I have hope its Bray**. Im not tiktok famous atm, i only have 140 followers but ik i will grow to have more. I hope your happy now, dat you enjoy living and that your depression left. I hope with all my heart that your suicidal thoughts left because i want you to read this. Everyone says things get better but they only do for a certain amount of time nd go back to being trash but stay strong girl. Become someone better than old you, grow from yo mistakes man. STOP BEING STUPID ND IGNORANT but at the same time,, have fun. Your still young but not stupid. i love you yet dont love myself atm,,crazy right? be the best version nd stay cool dawg❤ - btw happy early 16 birthday C ...from your younger self