A letter from May 14th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, This is going to be a long one, so you know where I am at right now. I bet a lot will have changed. You'll be in running start at Eastern. Finally! This opportunity has been our motivation for school since third grade! If I could see into the future to know what it will be like in a year, I would. But I can not, so instead, I will remind myself of the past. Currently, I am typing this to you on my Chromebook, laying on top of the new bed. We got it yesterday but I am sure Snapchat memories told you that yesterday. The ones with Kayla hanging out in the room. I was doing homework but I took a break to write this. The councilor put it on the google classroom. I am pretty far into Isolation but I think mom and dad have given up on isolating. Which is good because Tayten keeps asking to come over. I assume you know how that will end and I only hope when I read this I don't cringe at his name. I hope it is nice. Here is a name you might cringe at though, Andres. I am still not sure how to pronounce his name honestly lol. I do know though that he is my #1 best friend on snap and I think he is pretty cute. I think he only wants me for *** though which sucks. Boys are hard right now because I have this weird hope that I will find a cute, smart, nice boy at Eastern so I am wanting to like save myself for some dream boy that probably does not even exist. So I feel bad for talking to Tayten when I know that I will eventually cut things off, and he is leaving for the military with Austin. Enough about boys though, I want to talk about me. Every day, I wake up, eat breakfast, work out, shower, help Kayla with homework, do my own, eat lunch, help Kayla some more, do my own again, then watch criminal minds for the rest of the night. Except when I have drivers ed, but today is the last day. FBLA just ended and you probably will remember how that went, so now I am just focusing on FFA. I am wondering what things will be like. Is school super hard? Are Ally and me still friends? What about Austin and Trevor? Hows the Athena situation? What are things like with Finch? He said we are probably going to be FWB but I know if I have *** with him I will lose my mind so I don't know if that is the best idea. For like three years now every time he texts me I drop everything and I don't even know why. When he talks to me, he makes my heart flutter which is so disgusting. And I would not want to date him because loyalty is not in his vocab. He is with Sofia right now, but I know when she leaves I will be getting texts. I hope you can find some sense to us. I know at least I need it. This letter is probably long enough, so I am going to sign off here soon. I just want to end by saying I dearly hope that in a year, you are still happy, bubbly, love dancing and singing in the shower, smile at pretty flowers and cheesy sayings, and that nothing breaks our heart. I am so scared while writing this that between now and then something bad will happen to someone we love, or to us. If that is the case, keep your head high and find the bright side. We can not dwell on tragedy or we will live our whole lives in one. This is me, signing off. Love you and wish us the best in finding our way through the last two years of teenhood(one for you. Please enjoy it. I don't want to look back in twenty years knowing I was boring). Also, I am writing this on Thursday, May 14th... but I am going to set it for my 17th birthday.