A letter from May 12th, 2020

Time Travelled — 12 months

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, are you happy now? do you wake up feeling like there is a reason for you to be awake and alive? have you found love in a person, a friend, family, are you in love? have you recovered from your eating disorders and is your anxiety any less? do you eat food and not question it? did you ever tell your parents that you're struggling? how's coryn and what happened with the boys? is chaos still healthy? is your mom and your relationship any better? when did corona stop controlling your life? hows high school, did you make freshman year memorable? how often do you smoke now? did you lose interest in school, did you lose your faith in your success? did somebody break your heart this year? are you over drake still? did you ever get to kiss jack or have you kissed somebody and really meant it? are you okay? i hope you love life. - mena :)

Epilogue

about 5 years later

hi mena. i am happy for the most part. i definitely wake up with purpose - i wouldn't say i 100% feel alive yet though. i have found lots of...

Oewrt ive videdercso wlrod loev fo is eeinngu hsti hwen i nanytgih erve thta adn auiglnemnf tnah lrteet i eomr dah a lve,o felt. As elo,v llwe ni ma i. Tub has ned anc 'tond ademr uoy be hwo kiel rehew hvea nkwo em tli'l udonf ahwt nac at alest olev aekm hatugt dan p,u pesron it hwo i i a. Obuat amidtedt i ealyrl ehva ohw noehst dda abd ot utb omm nda ym veern ma ,be hsnitg enbga i xatyeni nca and rehtapy. Lewl, fnilgees tehy tyeh tub not ekam aosl dnot' did em cetnumicmao trreeg anhgsri ym. Hvea adie hwo is coryn nseyhlto i no. Dan never syar,e ,reya otw i eiv' we to eklrdeind esooohprm otdn' reh onkpse sfinhrdpei tihnk a ni efatr. Ppoeel nwe athw i wno isth nad are i atth hewn neev itn'dd nifdeed eyth hwo i oknw i ma ratef how emt otewr. It adn ca)orno t"eh retfa atth thi idvoc rveen out gnhu lleadc sbo"y arcyz( i anaig i. Pu to ym hohgut dneutoicn ppo ni nnufy yhet fle,i its woh. Tbanet ouy bydieornf, ont( eatt dan ot ewnt won own hwo enwt dgatni wiht is teh ihwt my bceal )sltli tub tedaret sa ot itme oanh lla tou tma,mroeo ,aecf uyro knedel porm shnag hyet on odiapgzelo orf ym. Oyu taps etorw ti ursmme achso shti 'dindt taht het kmae. I ilke ssim lsilt menoayr mhi, 'tond btu i sdgo. Rahd wtah i mom duse iovmredp and it teh to ermbemer be much vroe to os ym ikel tsi ,areys. Cmhu hwo treslsgug ujst tbu she sda smkea won, ti me. Hwo eb it of ot nawt omlde esh si a i ahtt nvree aeskm em sda. Vaeh iclanerty hhgi aws oodg do rfmo ammeboler, i merimose oolcsh not erya tbu sahmerfn. Eslfid lecbplakil hrhgtou uto t,lae cra and oesmtuak, lniypga rnniung ihngts. Of utsesns gnai eth iesnndr ubsrua adn tihw nturk in hte. On vrsied apuloes the. Deuksc ot i dna of leepird rfom a im ahtt fra olsa ti i noge tol, ahd tub it isth own os iswh rnoose. Ubt at i mi oheugn sekom do'nt ufnyn regnciiodsn ,all rattgisn anaig. I isltl na,uixso erov woryr dan tbu trbeet doof ltlis ayw, mi - its way. No ti deatscit ym rgolen ysad. Soohcl i ddi smkea ni dan ywa ym rpudo tfohug em ftiha elso ont i ussscec a atht guhrhto ni. Ogt edishcaocmlp have i dna eaddmer gtera i ot ghitns i of, ehrwe. Eknw - i it to nevig i eicoch ddi if its fo het whta eht i sya asw tbu won grhti best ahdr yan tbu oulcd. It eppnha tub my rboenk htrea idd in leaw,hi yltveunlea ysobd'on. Bset seadtni olodrfe ck,ja ni lefl fo eridnf eb hsi to oknw ikigsns tbu ttha oelv twih ublatlyoes doyu' uoy. Tou ralley uyfnn btu elwl, hwo it eilf n'itdd dne lyaps s'ttha. Reoidnfby i renuctr i nca rehevwne my isks. Hawt rof 'seh bnee in to i hpdoe em guy wsalya a. Ta t'odn oelv thwa i lvoe reweh mi' ,won i btu im' giunlidb. .

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