A letter from May 7th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Hi *****, I've been dealing with this for a while, and I just need to talk with somebody about it. I think that I may be Lesbian or Bi. I've felt this way for a long time, but I've just ignored it or told myself I'm 'confused'. My parents are homophobic, they were raised conservatively, and I don't want to talk to them about it. They don't know yet. The church at ****** is really open-minded, and I just need some help working through this. I don't want my parents to know (at least not yet), so sticking with e-mail would be good. Thank you for being there, ***** That's the letter we just sent to our pastor. If not now, when? Sure, it's Coronavirus. Sure, I'm quarantined in with my homophobic parents. Sure, I have absolutely nowhere to go and no resources to speak of. Sure, I'm currently sitting in a closet (really) crying. Sure, I'm mentally probably not ready for this. But, if not now, when? Wherever you are, good luck. And I love you. And so. does. God. -You a year ago

Epilogue

2 days later

Hi dearie,

Well, it's a been a year, that's for sure. A long, 15 months of March with life transformations packed in to the brim.

I suppose you'll...

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Dxeptcee oyu o,to aehv may otehr sa gcneadh nthgis vhea selecyrt. Ym i do neromay swa fsofter 'mi in ot sewte ranithcsi si enrtsap a (huhtgo a m,di)n tdsareh atrp for voel d'sgo ainrthcsi ont iwhhc of ekpe rouy ym awht cpateaepri. Hp)ypa hwo hruhtylgoo adn gthsni 'im eenb illts e,mylsf nto reve when lhiwe in i mofr tanh desu anmy naregsedt ahtt atwh ,eacs and edvpdee,ol b,e dan i sihetd,f ayn nfid veah ot i (nvee ahve irhpepa.
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Meos hte ni m'i hefpuol t,fueur rfo wyas. Teh ewlho of itsiepsicsm talepn dna niasxou salo a as aobut het ophe and. Gsifren gtri?h ,eodrcss.
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Ngednsi diialnatov lveo, epacte,ncca raed uoy, and ym kacb ot.

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