A letter from May 7th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Hi *****, I've been dealing with this for a while, and I just need to talk with somebody about it. I think that I may be Lesbian or Bi. I've felt this way for a long time, but I've just ignored it or told myself I'm 'confused'. My parents are homophobic, they were raised conservatively, and I don't want to talk to them about it. They don't know yet. The church at ****** is really open-minded, and I just need some help working through this. I don't want my parents to know (at least not yet), so sticking with e-mail would be good. Thank you for being there, ***** That's the letter we just sent to our pastor. If not now, when? Sure, it's Coronavirus. Sure, I'm quarantined in with my homophobic parents. Sure, I have absolutely nowhere to go and no resources to speak of. Sure, I'm currently sitting in a closet (really) crying. Sure, I'm mentally probably not ready for this. But, if not now, when? Wherever you are, good luck. And I love you. And so. does. God. -You a year ago

Epilogue

2 days later

Hi dearie,

Well, it's a been a year, that's for sure. A long, 15 months of March with life transformations packed in to the brim.

I suppose you'll...

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Wsa het sumrem. . . Dna aws o,lng too hte flla. Dan rfo hnet emit tnesrpa came nda ym leiv to ot eht with ,tiwern nruert. . . Ntd'id i. Capin a neht cntotsan to fo ormf end eekw fo ieferl, no h,tem srhu hmet i natficr nda a tuo rheti slcla and aecm flte. Adn ot ecxpte idtngmiseadnursn adn e,dpe edep me fasuelr. Id'tnd cstuk to whit homtns emos srbmeme ailfmy tinsdea adn teihr rnrtue i rhete, ielv twih tgscaffunoi to os, edpns nfduo ,ymncoap. Nad eneb ist' eyvlol.
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Ahve ouy too, as mya htnisg vhae nhgecda csryeetl oehrt etxcdeep. Evol iinahstrc dso'g nrameoy tpra a ancshiirt ofr retnpsa do ekep hhwic atrhesd 'mi sofeftr a in si ym ,d)min hatw ot hgh(uto i yrou ym iaptrecpea aws nto ewtse fo. Wehli ehva y)apph tlisl esflmy, i thaw e(env anmy omrf and earppih vere indf i ,aces hwo i hgistn tno ghyouhorlt 'im be, dvede,leop tidhs,ef eneb and ni ot tath dna wenh any seud ahve esradntge ahtn.
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U,trfeu hte ni mi' some opleuhf rof wsya. Dna as weohl uaisonx sola of aptnle a butao isitpseimsc teh nad teh poeh. Segirfn rd,cosse hr?gti.
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U,yo dgnseni eo,vl to akbc ecaatepccn, ym and nlovadiait rdea.

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