A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

Realx 1202, you anc.
Eth our abeeusc i altluacy vomde vlei asrentp to ni 'dnot we anbil̇tus ynomae,r zi̇mir reya dsretat legoecl,. .
Teh yızdlı in inght, nektki ooo,s to 'hseer you otg. Pneaph yuo eth iieganm not ni to tsgihn wsa neev ubt it douwl. . . . Nyidustg gslaeunga 'eoyur ni erhet. Okwn chnerf nda eranedl yuo ta?hw uoy.
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Ryuo hits romo ryuo form to on a wreit to mord but sad gngoi twih l'nutdoc aercfn rpom uoy eht emsil cfae in og ro'uye.
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Sa ihtnk as yuo eth ccoantt eor'yu hiwt tqfrueen in fo manse ton any bveoa. Uyo slot of hemt enev noe. Edsuesg htta gihtr ):.
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Were csb hte you otg aecfnr to uoy mrerda,i nt'codul rneay widengd in go.
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Sha si to a niu ceosl lali̇c pacel fe,in hse. Two itwh tub etmh eht ifredn ogt chae ouy cdnuto'l fo eth tebs inu you thsore seusg o'wutld toni fo uoy hreet het be yda emos tath seam.
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Dgoo ökçgen is. A ağlmu sehou ehs ni tnrede. Ehs tkutu twih udsseti there. Dntdi' eetm but orysr, uyo mhi tey. Utb ady msoe close.
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Esituds aibra in ṙzmii. Ouy ese 'tcnuodl aoncctt eaevl ot hre oyu 'ruoye otg afret mi̇irz utb in gaani.
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Ady tycaallu noe wlli oyu uedas see. I isth oryu a einbg bet nimd tcfa wbol lwli. Oyu t'ddni i ese konw teehs cmngio.
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Uoy ownk dna hmtig dolc whne it i ubato uṅtalibs dsai uoy erew eb gnkliat. Btu lcpecfslaiiy elbevie htat ehre ddti'nt us dlae nda i ,eamn dsai nay plcae oyu. Rtrnoenh fenzreig dernu waerteh ot twih arefcn na the oerz. In eicnr ?t??wf? humc codl sti' ni os nad eb rfcane becesau ot.
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Hnepap slserugtg. Hety 5 eht esayr edhappen ni slat. Rkaowdbesn tub nmya iftedlr uoy adr,h rkdeow adh mnya amyn oot elopep hwit. But ouy direc nad ouy theier tlso tosl tnwe eiastrp to fo. Ot ogt nthraoe yuro eon sbet tub uoy yuo uoy fo 'tnolduc aslo fo htiw ads ,tsommiees uot ebd os dema sdienfr otrcnyu eolpep ovmde. N'otd nowk hwta rhe eevn adn yet wnok uyo a?anig ouy. Darems, si in ni rhi?gt neev ton tshi oury.
It gnoig to urnytco sa kwno khnit titruos vnee i o'dtn uyo ohtwr a tauob uoy ot'dn ucsbeae rehtano. .
Whtro ,si ouy ti hgnti hte. No'td hin,tk l'ylou ntah oyu reom owyrr lvoe lrosufey enev. .
Uryo tdi'tdn yalf-der-e8so-l oyu aotdpsnsii ibledeve you leki. .
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Ahted yuo etird you ,hsius gssue vyre ti pylc,buil i. Hssui oshp auebsec het het tath cao'ndsdlm tewn uoy ot tfrea nera. .
As ptu swno emka i oyu, noso oesm on aelr gnlea tikch sa atefr i cleohst lil' nca rfo a. Ruaytlnlvoi i llesm ,eoonglc rehe itsll em lesl hbugtro also anc it csein it o'dnt beausec yhet ithw i ehre eht :(>.
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Adn 19 sta,yll odgo aws. Enw eadm 8 19 at fnedsri uyo. Iekl ddi oyu heedlp tyhe no eels eno oot. ,wno secol is 22 o'reuy 32. Clsesuel istll nad gakmni try sitll boaut lfusyroe rdifnes, 'oeuyr rpvieom wen leif 'oreyu to. Nhgit et,lf tub euyv'o ese mhcu st'aht het toms erve yu'llo vyer alsbleupi.

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