A letter from March 2nd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I hope you are in a better place. 3yrs ago today, you were in a very deep dark place. As you write this you are teary. You were crying a lot, feeling lonely, depressed, some days the pain was so bad, you didn't want to live, you lost 10lbs, you weren't sleeping well, you were angry. Your mind kept thinking of HIM and wanting him back. You were trying to heal from a devastating relationship with a man, who most likely is a narcissistic psychopath, who broke your heart over and over again. It started out slow and grew to love, at least for you it did. He knew you loved him, yet he refused to make a commitment but still strung you along making you think there was "something there" taking you out to dinners, movies, camping, races, working with him in his business, and ****** intimacy. for 5 1/2 yrs you chose to stay in hopes he would eventually see your worth and grow to love you back and stop the hot and cold, highs and lows. instead, he gave you silent treatments and ultimately threw you out like trash, no warning. You were in therapy trying to heal this pain and old wounds of abandonment. Hopefully the Christina that is reading this now is well on her healing journey, has grown to know her self worth and has such love for herself that she will never tolerate abuse of any kind ever again. Maybe you finally attracted a healthy person into your life. A man that is emotionally available, shows up for you, trustworthy, empathetic, patient, kind, trustworthy, is creative and earthy and as you read this you are so happy. you never thought you could find a good man or if you are single , you are happily independent and have an abundant life of outdoor activities and adventure. I love you!