A letter from February 13th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I need to tell you something. I’m honestly going through a lot right now, and it hurts. It hurts too much. But still! I hope in the future I’ll be and feel much better than I am right now, maybe have better luck and more support and love. In January 1,2020 when the clock hit 00:00 I started crying badly. Inf ront of my family. You know i hate crying in front of others, right? Ever since then I’ve been crying a lot (alone, ofc) and it’s weird. Anyways! I’m rlly sick rn, I’ve been sick badly for 3 weeks. It just won’t go away, stupid illness. I also think I’m a narcissist or got some borderline pd. Been going to psychologist for a while :D. Can i tell u something else? I really miss her. I really miss them. Besa, ezz, all of them... i hate it. Why can’t i forget them? Anyways, future me, i really love you, and I hope you’re healthy in the future! I actually feel like crying right now. I hope I’ll be alive to read this. I honestly wonder what it will feel like to you when you read this (if u aren’t lazy anough to read it, lol) CYA, LAZY *****