A letter from January 20th, 2020

Dear Avery, Its your 17th birthday. I hope its going well. Are you dating Dylan? He would've moved to La Grange right now...I'm writing this on that one day after y'all started talking, the day after that weird 10 hour shift where you went to work and then left for play rehearsal and then came back? The day after that. You were overthinking about the fact that he hadn't responded all day. You were starting to wonder if he just didn't like you. I hope that I can say "you were wrong" in the mirror after reading this. Hopefully ya'll are together? Or maybe you found someone better. Oh! And another thing, did you lose your virginity last year? Was it who you thought it would be and was it what you hoped it would be? I kinda really hope you're with Dylan because as you're writing this, you really liked him. Oh, I completely forgot about your music! Did you finally post your songs?? I really hope you did because that would be amazing!! And stop being sad. I know life sucks right now, and it's going to. But you'll be ok..I mean it is Junior year. But as I'm writing this, you're so unhappy. So sad all the time. Overthinking every move you make. Stop. God has already decided what's going to happen. And if he wanted you to question every part of it, he would've asked for your help in planning it. But he didn't. So if he wants you to be with that boy, it will happen. If he wants you to get into that college, it will happen. If something unexpected happens, whether is good or bad, he did it for a reason. Over the next week I'm going to be writing these and sending them to my future self...I hope that as you're reading this, you've changed enough to realize that no matter what happens, you're going to be okay. Love you, Past Avery, (almost) 16. -january 20, 2020-