A letter from November 15th, 2019

Dear FutureMe, i hope you happier, i feel... dissatisfied with my life but grateful, are we still bi? is shelby gone? is anyone gone? is arieana still here? i hope she is... is daniel still there? yes no? please fix whatever happened... do you still miss mom? i do... do you miss luke? is dad ok? is nichole ok? this is only a 6 month jump but stuff happens, i’m feeling useless a lot. but i’m not and i crave love a lot, but i do nothing to deserve it. maybe by time i see this i’ll be smarter and have more answers. do we still love her? how is art? not the class i mean. when was the last time we cried? remember that beetlejuice phase? did we ever get to go see it? is dean ok? i love him a lot.... i hope i don’t die before i get to see this... death has been a constant fear for me recently but i’ve craved it as an escape...? is alex still out friend? are daniel and shelby still together? i hope you’re proud of me, or i’m proud of you... please don’t die i love you bye