A letter from November 9th, 2019

Hey Future me! so far this year, uhh it's crazy actually. i lost 4 birds, oreo, butu, pearl, and peaches. Hero and peaches laid eggs but peaches died in the process- ya. stuff happened to leik a huge fight between my parents, but I didn't get depressed over it like last year. I'm gonna change now, I'm not gonna be some stupid sensitive freak anymore, because nobody gives a **** anyway, no even my parents. so I've developed a new kind of thinking, depression is naive till you've got a real reason. and if you come up to me with your problems, dude I don't give a ****. So ya, my parents aren't fighting right now, they're great. but school keeps giving so much work, it's ******* the **** out of me. but whatever, hifz academy sucks. now my parents decided to get a house in Wexford Tampa, next month in December, sell off the one in Orlando, and stop living with tasina. it really saddens me, the thought of not living together anymore, and moving to a crappy place like Tampa. I love my Orlando house and don't wanna change my life anymore. but there's nothing I can do, changes are the ******* worst. I wish i wasn't such a slow memorizer so I can hurry up and finish the Quran and make my life back to normal. siighh.. how your life... 16 year old self? my current friends: afifa, tasina, sufia, maysha, alyaa, Maryam z, and ilma. birds: sugar, 4 baby finches, hero, cherry, pineapple, minty, kiwi, cutu cutu, and sunshine.