A letter from May 16th, 2019

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Ka-Rin, It is 9:23 pm on a Wednesday and I've decided that for my 18th birthday I'd surprise myself with a letter. From my 17-year-old self. There's a lot on my mind that I've been meaning to tell to someone who'll listen, anyone who'll listen honestly. And I hope by the time this letter gets to you that you will have at least told mommy. Um I ate a grapefruit today and searched up the benefits so guess who's eating grapefruits before every meal. I'm going to be completely honest I'm not sure what to write and it took me 5 minutes just to finish this sentence because of Andrew. I hope mommy got you what you wanted for your birthday, if not it's cool your older and more mature. LIfe is changing pretty fast and it can feel lonely (cliche right. I know) but you've got to pull it together and be the lawyer you've always wanted to meet. Please future me, be the rich eccentric aunt you've always wanted. (lol). Don't let anyone take you down and mess with your head or make you believe a lie, 17-year-old you is dependent on your success. Mama's gotta bring home the bacon and mama knows how to get it. Now I know what your thinking, "this letter kind of makes no sense." Well no duh it's written by a girl who hasn't been in school in a year and craves knowledge!! I'm starving here! I hope your happy with all the nutritious knowledge you've been gobbling up because it's essential to your sanity. I'm going crazy in this house. I have books sure but nothing is like sitting in a class and learning collectively with other pinheads. And by pinheads I mean idiots. Right now though, honestly, what I miss most is the adventures I took when I was with friends and sometimes even by myself. Future Ka-Rin, I truly hope you're happy, like really happy. Not putting on a smile for people but real happiness that you can feel. Sincerely, 17-year-old Ka-Rin p.s. I could've written more but I have a huge headache. Good night.

Epilogue

over 1 year later

Okay here me out,
You're 20, and there is a pandemic. Yes, a pandemic. People are so bored that they've started arguing about vaccines, you're vaccinated, and you respect others...

Aekt n'tod nad t,i rithsg rwoyr ot ionnpiso not. Esbuaec gto ottnge tsih ivcdo yeu'or ebb,sa yoevu' arsmt rneev yuo. Fo mertesse enbe ot dmni the tub nad ebne sghouett pkee edacf 'veuoy ist' oury oevyu' darh flie no eht odrl uryo ynrigt. Ggnoi w'etnre ebne just edn lealmnty and ot meseetsr 'sthta h,adr uoy elwl csaslse tnveh'a veen hte sthi. .
Mofr wetn a uoy 3. 6 3 pag ot a. Ihst 0 got yu'veo ubt. Not tamsr adn tsi' 'eryuo rttsu reew wheer illst uoy mrfo ntyepl oot me arf. Got to sraged awy lla ot tno do yuv'eo wno enyoj nda orve stsers uyor dues acssels ujts the uyo is. .
Far as sa og nsdfeir. . . Enht het btu uot tegra your 'ndtdi to ocgllee seh dfrnie runt yare ouy aedm frsit a lwel eb fo tebs. Ynganhti wsa of ti you tboh oot ba,d of esh 'idntd kndi od. Em hewn nisce ellw ym ton ouy, gto ubt 71 aws ceelgol is tino ltae i i adbihyrt. . . Edegw riedt uoy a a ikdn isaha on dan no fo coefr btu sanay,yw beeetwn to at'sth and esh. Retsiss are ofr ilfe. Hdel kwon ouy ouy nad htsi yrou nrduog. Yuo hgthou ashhr a erwe ltltei oot. So dna rveen htem on eftofr siferdn ouy to ylon tfdderi text nisetrahlopi lwolfo jsut eth and hte yuro oyu nwo uyo sicooghhlh edam ereith ueohgn stgairnam. Sith yorue' mrtesese ytr to tub reylal ggnio. That to ont idtoenc drsnfei nghacleel ttuwoih tub ear ev'i anklcisg ,me to iensrfd that 'ive eneb tginhvryee rtstaed. .
Alst to and seemerst hyw ispresndoe kate nad vreo ceerp in ertid orybpalb athst'. Ym eb rysot lte i htat wnot'. I'm tno pesnoiders tieerh lmiaincg. Nmea on me it ni hodl has ssjeu on. Opleep etohs niggo how uedadrtsnn sith ot dna eorm thme infd i atkl ot snnadetrud rtemeses me ekma ot dan im' an nw,o toffer. Ubt eiatccgnp ot rtednpe ohw ar,eusnddtn nad ytlcaual be ohw opelep utsj ear ohest no'td. Tbu keam vhea tlils t'ndo destabe cna othse pilotacil asllm nishgt hwit me owh. So mnae sangik fro ni 'im im' and aebmy tbu too is ngalmcii ujsse adn eht ti it umhc. .
Nsigth ttah ngolre lwli almic esujs feel nad i'ts ebmemrer fog salo em oseol or no i i fo 'ncta kthni i on inmd liek will dhlo ilpesm ni eht eamn. Ehret edeger 'lcesbahor dan i hte onhj eanm to top ym i liwl sjuse for yja of ssalc ni dan law lliw rdeugtaa ym at gte og. Lla eno sioepsbl nistgh toseh aer isnght this fo adn si. .
Wsa a eebrof swa ruhos kdin oh on on ryou dan of th02 boj btu oruy a tgo a odog insagdtn tfirs and jbo ti on royu for abhidrty ady fete yuo. Oyu rwkeocor heiyntgrev eels the htwi but dclou ti up dna ndede lead rihreolb edlpi ouy. Aemd d'ton yenom rowyr gdoo yuo. A ulloy' vhae uyo nvree in a ayer st'i eepxcenrie eosuh ho htta othtuhg atth and oyu megnitosh ot wn!!!o kitnh oyu rczya dwuol ujts. Ei,fn tbu udaltases son hte our ddnlalosr odn't es'h by worr,y tgo dda. 'mi rseu oyu tanw toni but atwn to aietdl eorm og to no'dt wonk i. There snoo ollyu' egt ughneo. .
Hatt herto we yeoeervn arczy ciedded infftceeg sele os he how si to ereagrt thsi teg uvris bettre lodwu tub nac elt haeppn gbseigt that the hignt dog ghtsni tehes nda ihgtns ts'i. Htat eikl eh jstu roksw. .
I lpsli orf have meit nad i no satl agtiknl if aeyrs uto 'lil atth aysayn,w there ekep eht. .
Seodtol sbeba. .

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