A letter from November 7th, 2018

Dear FutureMe, I just finished writing my letter to you but you will not receive it until May 2019, I forgot the exact date sorry. So, why am I writing another letter? Or rather receiving another letter from myself? I just figured you will be needing a lot of encouragements if and only if by the age of 28 you still have not achieved anything and still where you were 5 years ago! Come on girl! Where was that fire from long before? What as it that you wanted to become so bad? You are not getting any younger! Where are you right now in your career, how about family? Have they reconciled yet? Have you forgiven them? Have you forgiven yourself? Have you reconciled with God? Did you ask for His forgiveness? Are you living a beautiful life already, with Him of course? How many disciples are you teaching right now? I am excited for you. So, don't go wasting your life on something that has happened ages ago, okay? Let's live our lives better this time. We cannot turn back the time, you should be mature enough to always remember that. Stop procrastinating! I know how you love to do nothing and to look at your phone all day when it is your free time BUT, what will you achieve if you keep doing that? Huh? Okay okay, I know I have said at the beginning of this letter that I will encourage you but if I am sounding more and more like a nagger, well, forgive me. I am just looking out for the both of us. Who's gonna do that for us? You? Oh please, I think that is my job right now just in case you are having "those moments again" you know, the dark phase. About that, stop being a ghoul, or a ghost or a plant or anything that is not living. I guess what I'm trying to say here is, if you don't feel like talking and burying yourself with emotions and locking yourself inside your room (just in case you already have your own room, hopingggggg) STOP, and go talk to someone, go out and find a solution for that problem. You are not a baby anymore. Stop acting selfishly, the world does not revolve around you and it will continue to move even if you are not feeling like living anymore. I have talked too much, so that is the product of being secluding and locking yourself from everyone else. I just hope and pray that when you are reading this letter, you have finally moved forward and are facing new struggles and hardships in your life and I am also hoping that by this time, you are already learning and applying what you have learned. Go out and have some fun with your friends. Smile often. Always be grateful and give love. Never stop growing. Be always kind and gentle, even if others are not. Keep inspiring people. AND ALWAYS ALWAYS DO THE RIGHT THING ACCORDING TO GOD'S STANDARD. You belong with Him, so live for Him.