A letter from September 24th, 2018

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Alex, You always thought that you were going to go through high school without ever getting your first kiss or ever going on a date. But then you met Gustavo. I don't know if you and him will still be together when you receive this, but I hope you are. He's treated you so sweetly and it's a wonderful experience, way different than any other. Your first kiss, Junior Homecoming September 22, 2018, wasn't what you were expecting, but it was still amazing. And he proceeded to kiss you three more times that night. Do you remember the song he kissed you to? It was "Stand by Me" by Prince Royce. You've experienced different kinds of love. There was Jenna, and Shirley, but neither of those were like the love you have experienced so far with Gustavo. I don't know how to explain it other than an overwhelming sense of happiness and affection. I see him everyday at school, yet I miss him so much when I'm at home. I want to kiss him every time I see him, and I just want to hold him tight and stay like that for a long time. He makes us happy, Alex. And I sure hope that he still does. You really deserve to be happy. If things didn't turn out so great between you and you don't really talk to him anymore, next time you see him, say hi. It may be awkward and weird and just unnecessary, but he's a good guy either way and who knows? Maybe you guys can be friends? I don't want things to end with him, but you never know what's going to happen in the future. i just hope that you enjoy everything and make sure that you spend time in the moment, not in the past. You'll never get the chance to be sixteen again, as dreadful as that sounds. But that's the way life works. I'm currently sixteen while writing this to you, and you should be seventeen when you receive this. Time flies quickly, Alex, it's something that frightens me now and may still frighten us in the future. Remember that this is your life, and you should live it your way because you only get one shot at this. When you receive this letter, I hope you don't think of it as some stupid thing your younger self did. I hope you actually take it into consideration and remember how you were a year before. That's all I have for now, so good luck, Alex. I hope you are okay, and if not, remember that you will be okay. Sincerely, Your Younger Self

Epilogue

over 2 years later

Dear Younger Self,

I remember when I first received this letter, I cringed when I read it. You wrote that at sixteen, and I received it at seventeen. A lot...

Adn ni utb i eard ni temi ahtt dba ,ihts ujst raey dagench yaw a eervy ton now eon uaghl i.
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Oyru htsign ddene ubt ibrrltey t,hgsni sa yahe, well eh mayn ouy as tifsr st,eeywl tusogav ofr was ehlwi a eh tsirf s,isk retdeat. Ttah it ubt abd 'tnrwee tath ewre itipnshlraoe ehret nisnseatc a soem tg,rea nt'asw. A it ned abd juts hda. Ihm it atermt adn s'otned utqie to lafkyrn uoy ndt'o klta ,oeaymnr. Ssim het i btu anutrtears oofd ihs ofmr od ml'iyasf. Oedrr gogni tou asyd eshte oen to fo haah tjsu rrcay im'. .
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We of ear j ni olrthpieaisn rsto dnaem itwh amn a a. L. . Dan ggtitne ehty ays mna onwk, sa ostr pu od bueaecs ni eh a the oyu nedde salway i opndeytemsl eavh be dna adn idd fof of htiw sa oyu dna irma,tliy setn imhtg ouy. Dna htbo mya rdgaee wielh ithw orkw lilw tye uwodl ipesoslb ymna ti,pr r,yt hace eenb taelids treh,o tou we we te'nvha rta'ne be geeohttr ,ognl that keli ereth whlei tub we ont ot hsit abuto we ti nda. To ehva nad 'ewer llew' ed,os vleea to he aitw ees areswt nad h'de jsut ggoin tets s,oon the if. .
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Ap,pyh od ot we esdveer su ahtt i ppteceriaa uyo inantgw be nad orf. Wnko abck how i ginlsgugtr ewre enht you. To rea ,nettxe we an tlgniggrus now tills. A htleah ielrear rof rtercun ot tihw bhrydait lnteam rou s1t2 uro nteninmgoi etorw my etlter us noencrsc i. Niitgknh hewn are veha htis kpee atth it ayw no tisngh bseauec i si tndmeis ot emocs utb fo lnesisl i ot uor elfe eacesub eth lafyim odgo, nsroae nggoi sha tlmnea. Ntemal si ti ti a si ssleinl cl,elda sa. Ilgvni of at ti ens'dot hte mertat home rkpa gailnlc pot i'm het cehnb ro ewthher a my ,dowrl. Our loy'lu tbu thwi stre ahtt be sti' ew iwll ggion yaok mhetnsgoi rfo to eht l,ief of eb ielv. Ell'w kaoy be.
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,su sillt as deso ti apigsns mite odse regtifnh it. Lltis swa i( noe dan rfom her ouy gnsos odide ew ksncu neli in arlkc eht of loev. Elvieeb can ew ehfselr ddoei fi l"elw' veern obtau exisetn einl oyu uyatclla a"agn,i t,i aklt hitw tath to ogt ) eb. For mte a nda reh trlea farte iectw m,siet yostr enes 'tasht tub a in e'vi tohb her orcctne.
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Si riracannnioet ni rou but t'si nnuyf ueasc stih ilbeeve one i fel,i. Nda sa ywa inv,lgi it ivle fo the gmanik ton urso get etak trleurync ot is flie ti we i ew eth ni ear eon thsnig etl cahcen itsh usmt oru. D'ont i p,sdtui hsti bit i eyjno ntikh eterlt qiute a saw that ti. Mchu eesl si stlli os saitslieohpnr yuro ewtri ,ti lei?f ok?ay ovel i utbao hwat aubto oevl yuo a 'id to odtn' i gogni olsa rhae btu nowk mite reiwt rcturen on ot mreo byame but daesi obtau nxet dna lttree uoyr tawn fmor a,tth.
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Ysirn,eelc.
Me.
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P. S. Og - yb now llo we ylla ly,filan.

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