A letter from September 24th, 2018

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Alex, You always thought that you were going to go through high school without ever getting your first kiss or ever going on a date. But then you met Gustavo. I don't know if you and him will still be together when you receive this, but I hope you are. He's treated you so sweetly and it's a wonderful experience, way different than any other. Your first kiss, Junior Homecoming September 22, 2018, wasn't what you were expecting, but it was still amazing. And he proceeded to kiss you three more times that night. Do you remember the song he kissed you to? It was "Stand by Me" by Prince Royce. You've experienced different kinds of love. There was Jenna, and Shirley, but neither of those were like the love you have experienced so far with Gustavo. I don't know how to explain it other than an overwhelming sense of happiness and affection. I see him everyday at school, yet I miss him so much when I'm at home. I want to kiss him every time I see him, and I just want to hold him tight and stay like that for a long time. He makes us happy, Alex. And I sure hope that he still does. You really deserve to be happy. If things didn't turn out so great between you and you don't really talk to him anymore, next time you see him, say hi. It may be awkward and weird and just unnecessary, but he's a good guy either way and who knows? Maybe you guys can be friends? I don't want things to end with him, but you never know what's going to happen in the future. i just hope that you enjoy everything and make sure that you spend time in the moment, not in the past. You'll never get the chance to be sixteen again, as dreadful as that sounds. But that's the way life works. I'm currently sixteen while writing this to you, and you should be seventeen when you receive this. Time flies quickly, Alex, it's something that frightens me now and may still frighten us in the future. Remember that this is your life, and you should live it your way because you only get one shot at this. When you receive this letter, I hope you don't think of it as some stupid thing your younger self did. I hope you actually take it into consideration and remember how you were a year before. That's all I have for now, so good luck, Alex. I hope you are okay, and if not, remember that you will be okay. Sincerely, Your Younger Self

Epilogue

over 2 years later

Dear Younger Self,

I remember when I first received this letter, I cringed when I read it. You wrote that at sixteen, and I received it at seventeen. A lot...

Ni ttha eon i now i a adghenc adn eimt tno agluh dab ubt rveey rdea reya wya sjut in ,htis.
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Yrelrbit your fro a vuaotsg oyu ngisht etardet eilwh he srfit tub as hi,ngts eyh,a he swa sa eewstly, dende llwe ftisr s,sik aynm. Ttha ereth etrnwe' mseo weer thta dba gat,re ti swna't iansnctse tbu ehtnrlpisaio a. Dba dah end a stuj it. Ti yuo dna eondts' to t'nod fynklar e,ayrnmo mih tmreat lkta eiqut. I sims ofod tatnrsaure the od ly'imasf utb mfor ish. Out eno rored ot of haah inogg sethe utsj mi' syad arycr. .
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Mna a ni ihtw a iinrosaehltp srto fo ew ear emnad j. L. . A heav i with sa eb hety as dan fo tneggit oyu asy pletsoedmyn eh fof alaswy ouy orts lmiyari,t eubceas idd dneed nma dan od ni uoy ents nad wokn, hmgit nda up het. Itsh rh,oet wuodl tath dna we lwli enbe tey getrtohe but 'renat heca oln,g ew it be nto tip,r e'tnahv ewilh ry,t tuo otbua wthi to reedag wielh keil korw adn amy ohbt we tiedsla many erteh seslpobi we. Eth and oging soo,n re'ew atwsre ot sjut vleea ese eh if ellw' h'ed ahve does, adn ot iwta etts. .
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Teraecapip do ew dan gninatw be us eerveds uoy ypa,ph htta i ofr ot. Who oknw i hnte abkc ouy untgiglrsg reew. We tneetx, to rae lsinrgggut sltil an onw. Emtaln trtele tahehl a onnnmiegit tcnruer ccsnerno oru tiwh ym eerrial i ibartdyh ot fro su ewrto 12st uor. ,odog si aer ot i on ot hsa tihs igngo ceusbea way nhigst sinslel igknnhti eefl ehav osecm nosrae rou sceeuba tub tmanle hewn iayfml ekpe i it teh ditsenm of atht. Elldc,a si is ti ti as nislesl mtelan a. Hte ta karp ti enbch hte ym i'm a of tamert wrteheh ohme ignvli or dwrlo, pot glcanil dst'one. Fl,ie okay tegsnimoh rset rof wtih ti's ielv taht ew but uoyll' of eb ggino to eb ilwl teh ruo. Oayk be 'elwl.
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Dose as lltis dose it gsspina imte gtrnhfie it s,u. Swa hre nssgo litsl the ouy one i( form sknuc calkr ni nlei dna we odeid fo leov. Klta 'lew"l eeviebl if fsleher acn ) to twih bouta you deido tath lnie i"anag, otg etnisxe be it, ew atclyual reenv. A dna rhe rectocn a cewti etalr tme thbo s'atth freta mtesi, for tub ysort ehr snee evi' in.
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Si i ife,l nufny oen intancoraneri ni siht tbu csaue our bveeiel 'tis. Ew sutm ew get lte eno ti orus the ear ot not uor elif i,glivn ngitsh nhceca ti awy ntulrcery i si as iths nda ni evil of etka mgknai eht. Hist that swa i ti jyeon todn' a etrtel eqtiu bti uti,spd i kithn. Auobt rettle ntreruc utb wnko tbu ?yaok adn oubta rihsaelnsipot mhuc i nxet a ont'd iggon ouy oury thaw autob emti ertwi 'di ofrm ehar so lvoe itrwe to eorm eadis tisll yruo si mbaey to i on ntwa evol it, t,ath flie? sola eesl.
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Eesrcnlyi,.
Me.
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P. S. A,yfilnl lyal now og - lol we by.

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