A letter from June 26th, 2018

Dear FutureMe, Well first off hi! I hope things are um, not a mess? ALSO, HAPPY 24TH BIRTHDAY. YOURE KIND OF OLD. HOW DOES THAT FEEL. DO WE HAVE OUR OWN PLACE YET? DO WE LIKE OUR JOB? ARE WE IN DEBT? DO YOU LIVE WITH SOMEONE? DO WE HAVE ANY PETS?? Anyways. Im writing this as of now we dont know what will we do in a future. Part of us is like fck it lets take a year off and do unexpected things like take art classes and volunteer in pet adoption centers, and the other part of us is like, be responsible! Study for four years! Become an engineer and be a normal adult! As of now, we received an email saying theres no way we will live on campus while studying in another city. So we are kinda panicking about it because we got no backup plan. You texted eric (is that thing still going? Are things ok? I hope they are. Tell him that rn I love him lots) Um, and he isnt that much help either, he tries to help by generalizing the whole situation and saying this isnt that deep, and that made you feel as if your feelings arent as important, made you feel dramatic, so you just stopped talking to him about it. Your mom is pressuring you, telling you that taking a year off is too much and if you do you would need to go to college classes, you feel like thats a waste of money and time. Your dad isnt really talking to you about anything, like always. You just turned 18 and you can feel that youre a mess of an adult. Right now, you feel like a failure. When youre reading this, I hope you feel like it was worth it. I hope you feel happy. I hope you feel okay. I hope youre taking care of yourself. I hope things got better. Someday, I hope you will not be disappointed by yourself and your decisions. Loves ya sometimes, your lil old self.